I M Perfect lady

I am reading "Simple Abundance" by Sarah Ban Breathnach with a few friends.  It is another daily reading book.  I also took out my journal and have enjoyed the hand writing again.  I love the sharp pencils, the blank page and unknown answers and the freedom to investigate…me.

Our first assignment was to explore our deep longings and aspirations…and I wondered what mine were.

What desires were deep in my soul?

As I wrote, it came to me that my longings have changed.  I have been working for years on myself, to become some one who did not hurt others, control others or steal their lives; to be independent and no longer co-dependent on others to fulfill my life.  I have been working to fill my own self.

In releasing others, I became free too.  

Now, as a free bird, if you will, what now are my longings and deep aspirations?

I don't know.

Not for sure for sure.

I do however have hints…

It is like my soul's purpose and passions were shelved or have remained hidden until the time was right to bloom.  I will discover who I was born to be…that all my years thus far have prepared me…to be Me.

All the detaching and self care that I have done, is not for naught, it has given me the tools I will need to continue…

I am open to the unknown future and feel fairly certain it will contain writing, quilting and being with women who inspire me as well as inspiring others.  To live more present in awareness…as Me.

I see myself as the Lady from my Art Quilts…that I am now living my Art.

I believe that new deep longings and aspirations are waiting to be born. I believe I have now opened the space for them to rise up and be heard.

I create my quilts by feeling…and I believe this will be the way forward for me.  I will do what feels right for me, even if it doesn't feel right for others.  Honoring me, will create a living work of Art.  Me.

Perhaps my deepest longing and aspirations was to just be me.  No appologies, no excuses, no fears of the consequences…of saying no to you and saying Yes, to me.

I am excited to see My Lady, as Me.