I M Perfect lady

There is a separation, that comes naturally in parenting, that sometimes feels like disappointment and worry, an un-natural split.  When a child makes their own choice that is in direct opposition of what we want/dream/desire for them.  It is more about us, it is almost like we want to live our youth again, but with the wisdom of age…AND, using their lives!

We want to spare them the consequences of choices made, the wasted years of chasing things that ended in deadends…the heartaches and struggles, perhaps we want to give them a life of heaven without the struggle to get there….taking all the fun out of living.

My son has opted to bypass school this fall and work.  Work as a general laborer, live in unique housing and gather tons of life lessons as if he is on a crash course on Life. My husband sees his son traveling down the similar path he once traveled and wants to be his guide; the one my son will listen to and obey….but my son only hears his own ideas.

You have to marvel at how our children's choices can push and sway us….how we literally feel the affects of their choices, when it isn't our life, but theirs.  How is it possible to feel so viserally their movements?  

I love that our son can disappoint us. That he can feel/see and act upon HIS dream and not ours. That he is able and willing to jump out into the uncertainty with gusto and knowing.  That he is grabbing his life from us and living it!  No matter the outcome, he has got it.

And, we (us parents) are holding the empty leash….he is gone.  I even wonder about the illusion we lived with, THINKING we had more say in his dreams and future, and in his daily living.  It seems, we are the last to know, again.

We want the best, we want the very best, we want comfort, love, peace and joy for him….and perhaps what he is getting all that….from his point of view!