I M Perfect lady

In the past few days, from a variety of people and experiences, I have witnessed the word "Worry" in action.  I had to see what the true meaning of the word is.

"Worry"

- give way to anxiety or unease; allow one's mind to dwell on difficulty or troubles….

-(of a dog or other carnivorous animal) tear at, gnaw on, or drag around with the teeth.

-a state of anxiety and uncertainty over actual or potential problems.

What I didn't know was that it was to be with one's anxiety, but I somehow felt that worry was constructive in that it showed feelings about the other person; like the more you worried, the more you cared.  

I lost my worry skills…once I began to truly understand the power of the Universe AND the Free Will of others, and just how much of what I worried about wasn't within my power to change.  My anxiety used to be that I believed I was in control and it was up to me to change…life. Reality. Things I didn't like, or want to experience.  I worried.

What I didn't know is that swam in anxiety…believing I was caring.

I have come to learn, as Byron Katie says, "It is not my time to suffer"…and it is not helpful to bring anxiety to a stressful situation, but positive constructive attention.  

I don't know what is coming.

Who I will watch suffer or how much I will suffer….but it is my intention to not give way to anxiety, but to seek ways in which to learn how to manage myself in different situations and remain present AND accepting to what is.

I believe, that the greatest source of anxiety is wanting things to be different.

In doing my latest quilt, I was feeling that I wanted a lady to be relaxed and comfortable in love.

When she wouldn't do this, I then realized that real love is to be standing strong and doing things that are not comfortable.  To grow as a person and in relationships you will be asked to do many things that are not comfortable.

Even to stand up for your feelings, your goals and dreams, to stand in integrity, you will not be comfortable, for many will try and knock you off the stand of you.

What I have been learning these last many years is that being unique, speaking your truth and standing up for the love of self, is one of the most uncomfortable things to do….especially if you have been living an inauthentic life.  If you have been saying and doing things that are not the truth for you.  

My worries have literally fallen to zero…the more authentic I have been living and the more I realized that we are all individuals on our own human journey with the Free Will of the Universe…that each of us have our own worlds to live in.

When I gave myself the freedom to be me…I gave the others to the freedom to be them.

I can't want someone to be healthier than they want to be. I can't step in front of the Universe and change reality.  I can only manage my world in this present moment doing my authentic truths.

Worry isn't love….it is anxiety.

Love is uncomfortable until you are comfortable being you.