I M Perfect lady

Is there anything to judge without the experience of truth…or perhaps your truth and the familiarity of its voice; your voice and your truth.

How often do you think the bare truth of who you are is spoken?

Who uses your voice and mind, if not you?

To Judge was to make a reasonable conclusion.

What is the reasonable conclusion of who you are?

Do you know you…or do you know what you have to do in order to maintain peace and certain relationships, status, jobs….love.

It came to me, as one who has learned to embrace the truth of who I am, where I came from and then….the small little voice I had ignored for years.  My soul.   That maybe the lack of true judgment comes for the lack of being you.

How can you make a reasonable conclusion about others, IF you don't know who you are?  If you haven't proclaimed loudly this is who I am.

In voice

In action

Alone, if need be.

This is what I stand for…or against.

Can you make a reasonable choice, if you have never reasoned with yourself?

If you have never obeyed the whispers of your inner truth….and instead echoed the voices around you…how can you know what's your reason.

I looked up "Reason"

"a cause, explanation, or justification for an action or event."

"the power of the mind to think, understand, and form judgments by a process of logic."

It is interesting to get to to the root of the reason, to boil things down and see what is your logic.  And, is it a logical conclusion or one that is based on group acceptance or an individual value point?  Or is it even based on the more selfish reasons of not wanting to be alone and different?

I would bet, that more often than not, whether we judge or not, is based on selfish reasons, OVER reasons about the person in question,  themselves.  

It never was about the other person…when I made the decision to exit a relationship; but about my own inner truths, emotions and feelings….my integrity.

In order to be truthful to me, I said good-bye.

Are the reasons self-loving, selfish, or to be loved and accepted?

Why do we reason the way we reason?

If you are not even truthful about the reason you made a reasonable conclusion, is it your truth?

Again, judging or non-judging is way more about your inner world, your character, and your ability to speak and act your true nature….than it is about the person or situation you are judging.

In my experience of the past 10 years of learning to live with the truth of being Me, all my decisions were about Me.  It was never about the other person.  It was about defining who I am.

What I will accept, honor and respect…is what creates Me.

I called it living inside out.

It didn't matter how it felt or looked on the outside…it mattered a great deal on the inside as I began to form Me.

Could I honor, love and respect me, was my first question.

My focus was very narrow, it pointed inward at my heart and soul.

It was to be born again, as an individual.

The road of great resistance.

10 years ago, I didn't know who I was…as a self.

It was to go against all I was taught and raised to be; by those outside of me.

In the past, my reasonable conclusion was based upon group mentality.  I literally could not conclude on my own…for I would have stood out in the group.  

I thought as the church.

I thought what was good for the family.

My thoughts were based on how others would respond.

I dodged confrontations and upsetting faces….by being agreeing with their reasons. 

I often belittle or berated myself when I had a difference of opinion…and was applauded each time I went along.  I was accepted when I matched their reasons.

What is so clear to me today, is that when I no longer took care to fit in, I was set free to be Me.  And, I got used to being my best friend and strongest supporter.

I didn't know how weak and small I was, until I began stepping out.

Or, how undefined I was.

I didn't know me…but, I knew the group and what their needs were.  I was a complete stranger to my own desires.

It has been a fascinating, terrifying, brilliantly tragic, wildly exhilarating, completely overwhelming, exciting beyond reason….to get to know me and Be Me!

I would not trade my journey for anyones.

How grateful am I…I get to be ME!

Actually, I can…..be Me!