I M Perfect lady

Just living your life, often is very hard. And harder still if you are a recovering Co-Dependent.   

What I fail to know about myself, is where I am attached, until another person's life choices are not mine.  And, I feel like part of me IS making that choice.   

It is then, I know I am way too attached.

To bow out with grace and let life be….is a huge relief.

I get to just be me, doing what I love.

Today in Yoga, I felt like I had taken my left leg and pulled it back to me.  Like perhaps part of my body was stuck in the lives of others….as I cared.

I was taught that care meant taking over a life.

Not that care meant being solely responsible for your own soul and knowing each and every other person was solely responsible for their life's choices too.

It is their soul's journey.

I recalled a paragraph from Byron Katie.

"I don't know what's best for me or you or the world.  I don't try to impose my will on you or on anyone else.  I don't want to change you, improve you, or convert you, or help you or heal you. I just welcome things as they come and go. That's true love.  The best way of leading people is to let them find their own way."

I have learned when my will appears imposing to exit.

What I have a harder time with is withdrawing my care.

I am fairly good at accepting things as they come….and go.

The going, I know is reality showing me its strength.

For, to try and hold on to someone who is already gone….is pointless.

I no longer wish things to be different.

I wish for me to adjust peacefully to their absence.

It is helpful to return to my world.

To bring in both my legs and do Me.  I can't live fully in my life, if a huge part of me is dancing in yours.  Or perhaps more true, stomping around.

I love that my legs get to be here in my life.

My life is my business and where I have to care the most.