I am irresponsible with my Light, with my self, with my body, with all the giggles, delight and pleasures, inspiration, free spirit feelings, art, my peace, my joy and my love, I leave them to suffer with others!
I am irresponsible in not wholly feeling, owning, and enjoying with abandon, me.
“Enjoying with abandon” strikes me as an odd choice of words that came out.
I literally do feel that I abandon ‘someone’ if I simply and totally enjoy myself! That it is wrong to focus on just me. Just me
Living my life separate and free.
How is it that I feel so much like I am abandoning others when I do this?
The feeling of doing wrong while doing right has plagued me since I left my dysfunctional family. It is the thread that has run through every thing.
The abandoning I am doing is actually a good thing; I am separating myself, my life from themselves and their lives.
No one tells you that as you walk out of co-dependent behavior YOU will feel like you are abandoning him or her.
Abandoning, I had to go look up the definition.
1. leave somebody behind: to leave somebody or something behind for others to look after, especially somebody or something meant to be a personal responsibility
2. leave place because of danger: to leave a place or vehicle, especially for reasons of safety and without intending to return soon
3. renounce something: to renounce or reject something previously done or used
Synonyms: dump, ditch, discard, dispose of, throw out, throw away
The only reason I can feel like I am abandoning others is that I feel responsible for others.
You simply can’t abandon something you are not responsible for!
Yet each time I am sucked into feeling responsible for another’s feelings, I am abandoning my own feelings.
If I have to abandon someone, it best not be me!
“If I pick you up, I put me down!”
Carl and Beth
I M Perfect lady 