I M Perfect lady

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  • Fly

    I listened to Byron Katie today, speak about the mind is always the cause and then we act out the affect of what we think.

    We think and then we move…it isn’t an action first.

    All our actions are supported by a thought. And here is the second part, the thought doesn’t have to be true and we will follow it.

    We will follow thoughts, marry for thoughts, die for thoughts, kill for thoughts, and suffer greatly all due to our thoughts, whether they are true or not, we never stop to challenge our thinking mind with our thinking mind.

    Many of us will die with the same thoughts our parents had, and will see ourselves as they originally saw us, we will not advance beyond the original thoughts.

    The family legacy of same thinking is handed down generation to generation.

    What most fail to consider is the original thinker and what his life experiences were and what he passed on.

    What I want most for my children is for them to have a clear mind, a free mind, a mind that seeks and lives with reality.

    I have come from a long line of brainwashed conformists.

    I see them locked into a diseased mind.

    Dysfunctional families can only continue with minds that are not free.

    Cults depend upon malleable minds.

    There are woman who fall victim to ‘love’ and all it is a mind game, a control, a man owing your body and life.

    The old saying, “if you love something set it free, if it comes back to you its yours if it doesn’t it never was.”

    Most will not ‘try’ or test the waters of their love, challenging to see the depth and breath of it, to see how free you are inside of a relationship.

    Some think the tighter you are bound the more you are loved, when in fact the opposite is true. The loser the ties, the more love grows.

    A free mind is a loving mind.

    A bound mind lives in fear.

    Hold a flower clutched in your fist and see how much it grows…

    The impulse of a parent is to squish their children tight to keep them safe, and yet the most loving thing we can do is release them and let them go.

    We can only hope that we taught them to fly.

    “What is bound on earth is bound in Heaven…”

    “Thy will be done…”

  • Yoga Heals a Loveless Self

    “The purpose of yoga is to heal.

    Most people start practicing Bikram Yoga to flatten our stomachs, stretch our tight hamstrings, and/or to prevent future injuries. And yes it will do all of that, but those are the secondary benefits to practicing Bikram Yoga. The purpose of this yoga is TO HEAL and that healing takes place from the inside out. It works on a mental level (and spiritual level) to heal our minds. Only then can we begin to change our self on the outside.

    Bikram says, the yoga practice teaches us how to like our self and we start taking better take care of our self then we fall in LOVE with our self!”
    Karen Buckner

    What I didn’t know when I began this practice was how out of love I was with myself, and how my love of my self depended upon another.

    If they loved me, I was okay.

    I never loved me alone, by myself without doing for another.

    It is shocking how dependent we are taught to be on another’s good opinion, how we act/be/live/think/believe to be loved.
    To have another love us, yet we don’t stop and think what it would take for us to love us, alone.

    Doing was my self worth, which I mistook for love.

    I was worthless unless I was doing.

    Imagine this type of self-love where you give and give and give until there isn’t any energy left, until you are filled with resentment of the takers who are your love givers.

    Giving to get love?

    My damaged body is what drove me to doing yoga, with an arm hanging limply at my side, my upper shoulders and neck one huge knotted ball, I began to work on self.

    What I didn’t know was that I was actually filling up my empty tank inside and dumping out all the past beliefs about how to love, changing my inner beliefs of my self, one-second at a time, as I paid attention to my breath and body.

    Each day I brought my body to the mat, and focused on my breathing, as I twisted and bent this constricted body into unimaginable poses, I was changing deeply inside.
    It is a like strenuous physical magic, while I was concentrating so hard to change my body, my insides were healing, my sense of self blossomed, my inner strength to be me became strong, my mind sought clarity and the willingness to face what is…the list goes on and on.

    Yoga heals a loveless self.

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  • Enlightenment Always Tastes Of Freedom

    I am reading a book, (I have many going at one time) by Martha Beck, “Steering by Starlight,” and in it she speaks of how will we know if we are making the right decision.

     

    The Buddha often said that wherever you find water, you can tell if it’s the ocean because the ocean always tastes of salt. By the same token, anywhere you find enlightenment – whatever improbable or unfamiliar shape it may have assumed – you can tell it’s enlightenment because enlightenment always tastes of freedom.  Not comfort.  Not ease. Freedom.

     

    In other words, the way you can tell you’re following fear away from your North Star is that while this course may feel safe, it will also feel imprisoning.  The way you can tell that something lies true north, even though inner lizard fear says to run from it, is that it feels liberating.  If you pay even basic attention to your own reactions, you can identify what I call a ‘shackles on’ sensation and distinguish it from a ‘shackles off’ sensation.  The difference will be perceptible to whether or not you are afraid to take a certain action.

               Martha Beck

     

    Enlightenment always tastes of freedom…….Sit with that awhile!

     

    How awesome that I am reading this book on how enlightenment tastes and feels, of freedom.

     

    This morning I awoke early and actually had gone to bed early thinking about who is more delusional my brother or I?

     

    I can see him sitting there and him looking at me like I have lost my mind, which I did, and him wanting me to be different that I am.  And then I am sitting here wanting him to be different than he is, so we both are delusional about each other.

     

    Delusion can happen any time we are sitting in reality and not seeing what is in front of us or when we want to change what it is we see.

     

    Delusion is when we are not happy with reality.

     

    Delusion will not accept what is going on now.

     

    Delusion will always want something or somebody to be different.

     

    Delusion or Reality, pick one.

     

    In the book, “A Thousand Names for Joy” by Byron Katie, she says it like this.

     

    “I don’t know what’s best for me, or you, or the world.  I don’t impose my will on you or anyone else.  I don’t want to change you or improve you or convert you or help you or heal you.  I just welcome things as they come and go.  That’s true love.  The best way of leading people is to let them find their own way.”

     

    So as I sit here one day later, I can see how delusional I can get, when I feel that there is something I am supposed to do, or say or if I jump high enough, shout loud enough, use the correct words, the perfect books, I can change what it is they are.

     

    I am delusional when I feel I want them to be different, to see different, act different.  I am delusional and shackle those people to me.  You be this way for me!  Who cares what you want, I need you this way, FOR ME. 

     

    Talk about conditional love!

     

    What freedom there is to let them do themselves in whichever manner that is.  I am free then to do myself. 

     

    I can be a great ripper girl, ripping apart my own delusions.

     

    It isn’t my job to go around ripping to shreds others delusions or even pointing out their own deluded states, I just must keep an eye on mine!

     

    Enlightenment always tastes of Freedom!

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