I had images of myself yesterday, the woman I had become from being left untreated in abuse. How backwards I viewed life, myself and how I treated others was indicative coming from whence I came.
Today while trying to write out the differences between living from love and living from fear, I stumbled upon a sentence that said, “Untreated abuse is abuse that isn’t seen”.
Imagine all it takes to treat abuse is to see it.
Just see it.
I was able to crawl to the surface by one child echoing what I had felt about my father, she saw what I saw; we both saw or felt abuse.
I am not sure how her treatment went from that point on, for when they treated her monster as a father, she was left confused. I lived in that confusion for 46 years.
I find great peace in knowing that treatment for a child is seeing the abuse and acting in kind.
All your actions from that day forth have to be indicative of dealing with a monster not a dad.
I know, from my own Monster experience, that the key in killing what ruled me was to see it.
To see the total make up of this monster, to see the triggers, the cause and the affect, to gain control over the monster that lived within me.
This monster was created from Untreated abuse.
Imagine.
The word Holistic came to mind…and I looked up the meaning.
1. analyzing whole system of beliefs: characterized by the view that a whole system of beliefs must be analyzed rather than simply its individual components
2. considering all factors when treating illness: taking into account all of somebody’s physical, mental, and social conditions in the treatment of illness.
When folks talk about holistic treatments for illness, they usually speak of natural substances to treat the affects, but rarely look at what the cause was.
Holistic to me is to look at the whole person, to see the whole view of where they traveled and whom they traveled with, what they were taught and how that fits into reality.
I am thinking that just like religion is learning about God and Spirituality is experiencing God, there is an equal space between trying to apply natural remedies upon an unnatural life.
An unnatural life for me would be to live like I was never abused. A more natural life would be to live as an abused girl. And the holistic approach is to see all the aspects of abuse and to feel that there was no part of my life that it didn’t touch, it isn’t just a mole in my life, but my life.
I love that I know two things now, that seeing abuse is treatment and to see all points of my life, is living holistically.
I grew naturally into an unnatural person in the land of abuse.
I was born right side up and was flipped and then tried to act normal from an unnormal place.
Holistically I see me.
This tree and me are one…I have such great love and compassion for how it grew and stands tall with its roots showing!
I M Perfect lady 