What I discovered yesterday is that everyone has to do some things every day that would be labeled work, some we get paid for and some we just do so we can eat or have clean clothes.
It isn’t about what we do, but our attitude doing it.
My freedom comes in what kind of mail lady will I be. I bring me and I bring with me an attitude.
I feel I have much power over my attitude, or at least the power of acceptance and being present with whatever appears.
It is much easier to live that way then to be in one place wishing you were in another.
Being a stay at home mom, there were tasks that I didn’t enjoy and lately find myself wanting to do less and less of the household jobs, so maybe working outside of the home will erase them from my job list.
It almost feels like I am graduating again, that a new part of my life is opening up and I get to do something new.
In Elizabeth Lesser’s book “Broken Open” she discusses how she had to change the kind of mom she was when her kids left home and became young adults. I understand that.
That there is a time when the job ends, when it’s no longer required, and we have to change.
As our lives change we change, we flow and bend as it does. If we don’t then we will be hanging on when we should be letting go, refusing to bend we will snap.
The more I am a working girl, the more the household chores are shared, bringing the kids into that extra part of life, the part that has no pay, but needs to be done anyway.
When I am out each day, it evens up the playing field, I became one of them, I too am gone all day, and we all come home wishing there was a mom there cooking, cleaning and getting our clothes washed.
It becomes a tag team effort, we each do some of each job and the job gets done.
This has been a great opportunity to get a preview of what it would be like if I worked full time. The part I haven’t brought in was the Art expression. I let most of that go. I wasn’t able to maintain creating while working 6 days a week.
It is up to me to carve out space, to block out time that is just for me, it is my responsibility to be creative, it will not just leap at me.
After today I have two days in a row off, I will decide how I spend them!
We are the ones spending our life. Imagine that, we are spending, we are taking our lives and using it, we are the ones who decide how will I spend my day, my free hours, and my time.
With free will we decide how to spend our lives, how we either abuse or disuse so much time, like there is an unlimited amount there.
We don’t need to hoard it, but neither do we need to toss it aside, instead we should be aware of the generosity that is laid out for us each day.
Our time stretches out each day, and we can either place well-enjoyed moments, or flop down angry attitudes, we layout our lives, moment by moment.
We decide what we lay down each day.
See it like a patchwork quilt, and each hour is connected to the next, what will your quilt look like at the end of the day, how much contrast, how much texture is laid out?
Even on my working days, I should add just a smidgeon of color, of wild enjoyment, even if it is just a hour, it will punctuate the day.
I M Perfect lady 