The Way

"Freedom will Cost you the Mask you have on."  Florinda Donner

In a past blog, "freedom bus" the way you drive is maskless, and all you see their masks seem to slide off.

Now you would think it would be easier to be maskless and how simply glorious to see the folk without a mask.  What if you see your parents without a mask, what if behind their mask of kindness, is a mask of dysfunction.

It usually happens that way, it is not like you lose the mask of Molester, to find a Father beneath, nope, it is the other way around.  So we are asked to give up our parents, the familiar is replaced with the unknown.

And the harder part is what to do with these maskless creatures, these parents now exposed as 'monsters'?  You see the same face, the same body, coming from the same house, same habits, but you now know that beneath that face, behind that smile, lay an ocean of past truths and misdeeds.  Enough to leave you breathless, hopeless, parentless!

Now What? The awkward pose for sure.  You have two choices, let them keep their mask on, and then you too don the mask of Pretend.  The second choice is harder, you have to be the one to stop the Legacy of Masks.  You have to be the one who is strong enough, courageous enough, love them enough to no longer play the game of hiding behind the Masks of Dysfunction.

To be the one to walk maskless is a walk to freedom for sure, but it may also cost you freedom from a family you love.  You may not be accepted maskless, you may speak words they don't want to hear, and not say the things they do. Your actions or walk may put more space than closeness, and you have to walk away alone.  You and you alone will decide. 

Something within you can no longer live the life they require, or it is harder to pretend, then to live a life in reality of knowing.

It seemed I happened into a spot of knowing too much, I could no longer pretend to pretend to pretend that they were the parents in my mind.  I had to honor my inner knowing, my truths, my experience, and maskless I turned away.

There are no cheers, no please come back, no, instead you will be made the one who is wrong.  You become the wrecker of the family, the one who jabs at a mother who can't do it, and it becomes your fault.  Some how in their eyes, we become the problem!

Yet it becomes a problem to stay, for it will cost us our freedom, our peace, love and joy, to remain behind our mask of pretend.

The mask of pretend, as it falls, we find ourselves standing free, outside of the family, raw but alive, hurt but feeling oddly strong, seemingly for the first time a separate unit.  Shockingly free, unattached to the legacy of abuse.

Now what?  Where and how?  Like a newborn free spirit we feel for the first time, see and hear all things in a brand new way, it truly is to be born again, a maskless human being on a Spiritual Journey called life.

Maskless and Free, you now get to learn how we were naturally, how innocent and untouched, unspoiled.  We step out with a new sense of self, a new hope that our futures are free of the legacy.  We get to begin again.

May the Sun shine upon you and give you peace, love and joy, you do not walk alone.  All souls who are lost in the darkness wanting to see, cheer you on, you are marking the Way.