I M Perfect lady

“Failing to Appreciate” I thought was such an odd term to use for the meaning of psychic blindness, for it seemed so kind.

But as I pondered that word yesterday, we use that word appreciate when we speak of value.

If a house is getting run down it depreciates in value.  When you really appreciate what someone has done, you are giving value to what they do, and if you feel unappreciated, you feel less than, so it does make sense to use the word appreciate.

We failed to see the value of an action.  Our value scale was skewed and we valued the wrong stuff.

It is like finding out diamonds are worthless and rocks have a high value.

Appreciation, noun: gratitude; thankful recognition: They showed their appreciation by giving him a gold watch. the act of estimating the qualities of things and giving them their proper value.

I am just getting the word, “Self Worth”…and low self esteem.

Self Esteem, self-respect: confidence in your own merit as an individual person.

Self Confidence, confidence in self: confidence in yourself and your own abilities.

How tragic is the nervous disease called ‘psychic blindness’ it literally has you living life feeling worthless, due to your inability to see what is worthy or not on the outside, you can’t recognize your own self worth.

Imagine, if you have the value system backwards, you inner values too are backwards.

It is quite a ride for sure, to witness the changes occuring, like Fall Leaves changing their color, we now put credence on the correct things.

Going from dark to Light, from sad to appreciation, from despair to joy, from fear to love, responsibility to freedom, from control to allowing, letting go instead of holding on, not breathing to breathing…..

Even while losing family and friends, I understood why, and there was sadness in what could have been, but there was gratefulness in walking beyond the dysfunction, which we now know as Psychic Blindness which has our ‘relationships’ how we relate to people and things.

I failed to appreciate, oh boy did I ever.

I failed in so many ways.

I was blind, but now I see.  Isn’t that a line in the song, “Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me, I once was lost, but now I am found, was blind but now I see.”

The gratitude that comes forth is overwhelming, to be the one to experience the joy, the love and peace, by the Grace of God go I!