I M Perfect lady

Byron Katie has what she calls, A Judge Your Neighbor Worksheet. (Byron Katie,  thework.com )  And on that sheet you are to be as petty, and judgmental about someone who you feel causes you stressful thoughts.

 

While rereading the message my sister wrote, I told my brother that I feel once again all that hurtful energy is like a boomerang and it will go right back to her.

 

It reminded us of the ‘judge your neighbor worksheet’.

 

We then decided to replace all the you’s in her letter with I’s.

 

Any place where she was directing hurtful or seemingly hurtful energy to me, we turned it around.

 

Here is an example;

 

You want to replay that sad little tune to keep yourself connected to the sad horrible life that you were given and wow do you sound enlightened!

 

So, if you take the you and switch it with I, it will read as follows;

 

I want to replay that sad little tune to keep myself connected to the sad horrible life that I was given and wow do I sound enlightened.

 

And here is another; Yet the people who truly know you and your "story" don't really see the example that you say you are. I think your lack of involvement speaks volumes in where you really are.

 

Yet the people who truly know my ‘story’ and me don’t really see the example that I say that I am.  I think my lack of involvement speaks volumes in where I really am.

 

It is really easier to reinvent who you are to people that don't know you? Sorry but I am not buying the bullshit -you can peddle that to other "enlightened souls".

 

It is really easier to reinvent who I am to people that don’t know me.  Sorry but you are not buying the bullshit –I can peddle that to other ‘enlightened souls’.

 

Hateful or angry letters written to another really are about you.

 

Some may say that this is my way of making it better for me or that I am in denial of my interactions.

 

In the beginning when the energy systems seemed to be bringing me hate, anger or just plain unhappiness about my actions or the lack thereof, I stopped engaging or even sending anything back.

 

I simply didn’t have the energy to defend or try to change their minds.  And I guess so hurt that I couldn’t go in to that system trying to explain myself.

 

So, what I thought was to get other letters written in anger at me and see how they too flip back to the sender, how it shows more of who they are.

 

Ok, here is another letter that I never responded to.

 

“you decided WITHOUT talking or discussing anything that I was no longer ‘worthy’ of being your sister.

 

I decided WITHOUT talking or discussing anything that you were no longer ‘worthy of being my sister.  (Ouch.)

 

It is easy to LISTEN to and SPEAK to only those who reflect and confirm your beliefs.

 

It is easy to LISTEN to and SPEAK to only those who reflect and confirm my beliefs.

 

I think it is comical that you actually believe that your actions are perceived as rational and that those you INTEND to hurt are bothered by your bizarre behavior.

 

I think it is comical that I actually believe that my actions are perceived as rational and that those I INTEND to hurt are bothered by my bizarre behavior.

 

You NEVER faced him nor did you speak to him.

 

I NEVER faced him nor did I speak to him.

 

Where were you the day he faced the judge?  How dare you act hostile to any of us when you sit in your home and judge.

 

Where was I the day he faced the judge?  How dare I act hostile to any of you when I sit in my home and judge.

 

You stopped listening and reaching out when you couldn’t CONTROL the responses. You can die right and alone or you can decide that all of us are worth loving no matter what.

 

I stopped listening and reaching out when I couldn’t CONTROL the responses. I can die right and alone or I can decide that all of you are worth loving no matter what.

 

Isn’t it astounding to see the actual turn around that Byron Katie speaks about?

 

Of course my sisters would have to be willing to question their stressful thoughts about me in order to see that those thoughts are really about themselves.

 

I do have to do one more turn around on my mother’s latest letter.

 

“My memories are only mine.  No one can take those from me.  May you find acceptance and peace in the past.  What is is.  No amount of screaming, shouting, crying can change that.  I love you, always have and always will.  You are my beloved daughter I continue to pray you will come to accept me with all my faults and failures.”

 

My memories are only mine.  No one can take those from me.  May I find acceptance and peace in the past.  What is is. No amount of screaming, shouting, crying can change that.  I love me, always have and always will.  I am my beloved daughter, I continue to pray I will come to accept me with all my faults and failures.

 

Wow, isn’t it simply amazing in its tragedy?

 

The volume of the anger that is directed at me, I am the target, there is a bull’s-eye on my back okay, my heart and they are free to lob arrows of anger anytime they feel the impulse.

 

Confused people feel that by changing the actions of others ‘outside’ of them that then their lives will be better. 

 

If they can only manipulate us by screaming and belittling us, then their worlds would be better.  It is all about them.  It literally has nothing to do with me.

 

They are not caring one iota what I need, feel or want, who I am, sincerely ‘not interested.

 

Even though the letter was sent to me, it was a letter to them.