I M Perfect lady

I am reading a book, (I have many going at one time) by Martha Beck, “Steering by Starlight,” and in it she speaks of how will we know if we are making the right decision.

The Buddha often said that wherever you find water, you can tell if it’s the ocean because the ocean always tastes of salt. By the same token, anywhere you find enlightenment – whatever improbable or unfamiliar shape it may have assumed – you can tell it’s enlightenment because enlightenment always tastes of freedom.  Not comfort.  Not ease. Freedom.

In other words, the way you can tell you’re following fear away from your North Star is that while this course may feel safe, it will also feel imprisoning.  The way you can tell that something lies true north, even though inner lizard fear says to run from it, is that it feels liberating.  If you pay even basic attention to your own reactions, you can identify what I call a ‘shackles on’ sensation and distinguish it from a ‘shackles off’ sensation.  The difference will be perceptible to whether or not you are afraid to take a certain action.

           Martha Beck

Enlightenment always tastes of freedom…….Sit with that awhile!

How awesome that I am reading this book on how enlightenment tastes and feels, of freedom.

This morning I awoke early and actually had gone to bed early thinking about who is more delusional my brother or I?

I can see him sitting there and him looking at me like I have lost my mind, which I did, and him wanting me to be different that I am.  And then I am sitting here wanting him to be different than he is, so we both are delusional about each other.

Delusion can happen any time we are sitting in reality and not seeing what is in front of us or when we want to change what it is we see.

Delusion is when we are not happy with reality.

Delusion will not accept what is going on now.

Delusion will always want something or somebody to be different.

Delusion or Reality, pick one.

In the book, “A Thousand Names for Joy” by Byron Katie, she says it like this.

“I don’t know what’s best for me, or you, or the world.  I don’t impose my will on you or anyone else.  I don’t want to change you or improve you or convert you or help you or heal you.  I just welcome things as they come and go.  That’s true love.  The best way of leading people is to let them find their own way.”

So as I sit here one day later, I can see how delusional I can get, when I feel that there is something I am supposed to do, or say or if I jump high enough, shout loud enough, use the correct words, the perfect books, I can change what it is they are.

I am delusional when I feel I want them to be different, to see different, act different.  I am delusional and shackle those people to me.  You be this way for me!  Who cares what you want, I need you this way, FOR ME. 

Talk about conditional love!

What freedom there is to let them do themselves in whichever manner that is.  I am free then to do myself. 

I can be a great ripper girl, ripping apart my own delusions.

It isn’t my job to go around ripping to shreds others delusions or even pointing out their own deluded states, I just must keep an eye on mine!

Enlightenment always tastes of Freedom!