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A habit of taking care of me!

If you have a bad habit, you automatically pass it on to your children, and it becomes their habit.  Your lifestyle becomes theirs, your relationships will echo in them. 

 

Now that I have begun to unlearn my bad ways, to correct many places where I was upside down and backwards, what happens to my children?  Do they get left where I started them off wrong? 

 

It is like I bought them a ticket for a train bound for Good and Normal only to find it is a train of dysfunction. 

 

When and if I get off do they continue on?

 

I feel like I set them on a course and now that it has become their normal; I am abandoning them by jumping off.

 

It feels like I am up against the habits within me but now they are within another.  How to convince them I was wrong, that I put them heading in the wrong direction?

 

It is like a trainload of sleeping people heading in the direction of a cliff and I can’t wake them up. 

 

Saving myself and jumping off seems so selfish.

 

How will they change course, how will they become aware of where they are headed?  Is it up to me to tell them where they are going, where I was wrong, that I dealt in life poorly and now they are living the results of that?

 

As I sit near the tracks of their lives, I do not know what I can do for them.

 

Is it possible that they too will switch trains when I do?  Is it possible that they will eventually echo my new changes?  As they witness the changes within me, will they then dapple in a new habit.

 

A habit of taking care of me!

 

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  1. Gloria Avatar
    Gloria

    I think it’s each individual’s destiny to evolve. We are becoming more and more aware, each and every one of us, at our own unique pace. Just as we had to undo some of our errant ways, so too our children, as did out own Grandparents. Do you see your Mother in you? I see my mother in me. I am beginning too, to see some of me in my kids. But they are also good at pointing out things about me that they don’t agree with or like. As they dis me for my humanity, It’s becomes their won responsibility to evolve, or end up “being their mother, after all” It may be inevitable, or As Elizabeth KUbler Ross said, in her Book the Wheel of Life, “We are here to Grow. And when we have finished learnign what it is that we came here to learn, our time is up.”
    Saint FRancis of Assisi said “Speak the Gospel at all times, and when Necessary, Use words.”
    Modeling Works, even if you are old and they are grown adults. The Example we set as parents is dynamic. Before My Great Uncle Died, I watched My father mend a many yeared estrangement. I’ll always remember that.

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  2. I M Perfect Avatar
    I M Perfect

    Thanks Gloria for your words. I agree that each child has their journey, but I did wonder if we can evolve beyond each generation. Modeling is huge, it can show the way, although each has to walk the walk.

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