I M Perfect lady

Can something be good and evil at the same time?  Is it possible that nothing is one way, but actually it can hold two diverse meanings at one time? Is one man's evil another man's love?  If so is love and evil ever changing as it is defined from man to man and woman to woman? Are the definitions the problem or is it in the perception or the eye of the beholder?

As the discussion continues and labors forward between those in the church and those outside, those who had good experiences of the church and those didn't….as well as between my family of origin and I.

Is there just one good church and then me bad mouthing it.

Is there just one good family and, again…me bad mouthing it.

Just where is the truth found?

Is it possible that the truth is the truth for one and then the truth is the truth for the other, EVEN if those truths are completely opposite?

How do we then know the difference between good and evil, right or wrong, love or abuse?

Does it lie in the definitions or in the perceptions of those defining it?

Is it possible that there is only one correct definition of love, abuse, and cult, but that each of us bring our own meaning to it by how we were taught.

Could it be that we define love by how love was shown us?

Not by its true meaning, but by our meaning.

From my experience, my file managers were completely dyslexic.

I had to look up the word "Dyslexic" to see if that makes sense.

"a general term for disorders that involve difficulty in learning to read or interpret words, letters, and other symbols, but that do not affect general intelligence."

Hmmm, not sure now if that works. From what I am reading, it is trouble with the letters more so than general intelligence.

My file managers had trouble with definitions or were very creative and made them up as they went along.

It left me with the wrong discernment of my world and the folks who I called family.

There seems to be a wide gap between what is going on in reality and then what others see.

I used to live in this surreal world, where it didn't touch reality…where my mind transposed definitions to create a kinder world.

It didn't make the world kinder, but it had me Believing it was.

I am not certain I can explain or articulate what happens to an abused child's mind.

How its definitions get all messed up.  How it sees things but calls them incorrectly…and if untreated or unaware, they go through life NOT knowing the difference.

Allowing them to believe that which they call love is love, when it actually abuse.

It is like definition dyslexia…not letter and symbol dyslexia.

You can't see correctly what is right in front of you….you define your world backwards.

Where love doesn't mean freedom, respect, trust, etc….but it means controlled, disrespected and untrusting.  

Love and abuse are completely flipped around.

I know this will sound insane and completely nuts, but there is no other way to explain how so called intelligent folks are able to NoT see.

They see, but their definitions are wrong.

They were taught that the feelings of love, felt like neglect, disrespect, shallow, selfish, self absorbed…etc.

How would a person know they were wrong, if the only love they ever known was abuse?  Wouldn't abuse not stand out?  

Is it possible that if abuse was called love, that they don't know what love is?

I think I thought, they knew both…but I forgot to remember I didn't know love until I was 46 years old.  I knew my own definition of love that I was taught as a child, but it and what I know today are not even close cousins. They are the complete opposites.

Love's opposite was/is indifference.

I had to look up "Indifference".

"lack of interest in or concern about something"

My definition of love from my childhood was indifference.

From what I know of how my parents treated me, this is completely true.  I felt their indifference and called it love.