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My Lady is going on Film!

The "Roots of Rescue" is a documentary on rescuing animals in the south, or perhaps the treatment of animals or even the separation of seeing even the animal and its needs. http://rootsofrescue.com  (you can "Like" Roots of Rescue on facebook and there is a link to their documentary.

The same guys who made that, are now working on one titled "Call Me Mental".  

And, I am going to participate in this film…or let's say try out for a part.

They will film my story.  They will record my words and my film my quilts…trying to encapsulate me and discern the mental part of my journey.

Sunday at 9am, filming begins…in my home.

I feel the anxious excitement of having new ears and the unknowing if I will be heard and/or believed, and the secondary of Telling my story again, which opens me up to more disbelief and redicule from those who would prefer I be silent.  

And the bigger part of me is thrilled to have this platform.

To be the voice…for so many who remain silent.

The weight of being able to articulate, and again encapsulate, with dignity and grace the walk of the victim of being sexually abused by a family member and how we are treated…and more importantly how we can rise above it.

I am relaxed in knowing I know me and understand and feel confident in my walk.

I am going to welcome them in….and there needs to prep.

Nothing to get ready…or no script to be learned.

I just will be as I am.

Where I am.

And share.

They will meet me in my life as it is.

I am excited they are doing this project to de-stigmatize how we see the mentally challenged….and to give a louder voice in breaking the silence.

I will support and be part of this mission in any form I can.  It is to take my voice out of the local area and to join with others like me.  

But I do feel the nerves shaking…for I am not being silent and I am willing to do a full disclosure…and I know it adds more fuel to the fire of how I am seen.

It will be a victory for the ones who see me as mental, for I fit the role these photojournalists are looking for….a person who is labeled mental.

It is my hope, that I can break a bit of the stereotype and raise the awareness of how it feels to be one of the disenfranchised due to the treatment we experienced in childhood.

The organic way this occurred has me believing it is the next step for My Lady.

My Lady is going on film!  

 

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  1. Earl Redinger Avatar
    Earl Redinger

    Beth, I have to apologize for posting in the wrong place, but the thing is I am so happy your quilts and your story is finally getting out to the main streamers and not just kept here for the believers to ridicule. You know, Russ Limbaugh made some very sexist remarks 2 years ago and then proceeded to poo poo the power of the internet about causing any economic harm. Well, he is now only signing up fringe advertisers for phony products instead of national advertisers. I have family and friends who suggest maybe I should take up a different pastime, but what kind of sick folks are these fringe groups entertaining when the very mother of one is so AFRAID she has managed to turn away from her God given instincts to protect the existence of this myth that was created to illuminate suffering among Indians of another country. Lars Levi Lestadius was a half breed Indian who had an abusive alcoholic father and a full blooded Indian mother who only wanted to stop the abuse caused by the whites carrying alcohol to the north country. In fact, (not some myth) he was awarded the medal of honor for humanitarian reasons, not some mythical spiritual reason like we were led to believe and by the way. This “only way to salvation” has been revised seven different times in the short time it has been available here in the states. And, those revisions, (every one) was done by one of his facilitators here, not in Sweden where it originated. I, very much like you am very,very motivated to get the truth out and to keep the spot lite on. Only way to get the abuse out where it can be delt with by the proper authorities is to take away the hiding places. Earl

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  2. beth Jukuri Avatar
    beth Jukuri

    Thanks Earl. I am not a very learned person on the facts of the religion I was raised in, but that does sound like the perfect religion to fit my parent’s lifestyle. It matches.
    I also agree with the power of the internet and what these guys hope for is to not let the stories end at the Documentary; but to continue on on a website. One that will link to blogs like mine.
    It isn’t easy speaking when we have been taught and raised with fear of doing so and repercussions of being cast out….but it has to start with someone, somewhere…and it seems to be me…and a few brave others.
    I don’t know if my story will make the documentary, but they are willing to spend the time with me to see where it goes…and I am as well.
    Being part of Call Me Mental is an honor and it will not sit well with many who want their label of normal to remain firmly in place….and that only my father was ‘mental’…oh, and now me. But that the disease didn’t touch them.
    Thanks for cheering. Even though my cheerleaders are not huge in numbers, they are helpful in keeping me moving forward to the next public platform….and the next seems to be this documentary.
    Either way, having my story heard and filmed will be beneficial to me….for as Dr. Maya Angelou says, “There is no greater agony than an untold story inside of you.” Mine is getting out!
    Thanks again for sharing Earl.
    I wish you the best on your journey!

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