I M Perfect lady

I see the outcome of the election and can relate that too my own personal upheaval or disruption to my life. 

When I was clearly defined by my religion and family, I wasn't anchored into a deeper part of Me.  I didn't know who I was, when both of my identifying sources changed…and I was lost.

Lost, confused, angry, and very scared.

When after trying to change the outside, I knew that the only one I could have any power with was me.  I wasn't able to sway or convince anyone to see what I saw or to experience what I had.  While I was so adamant about changing their lives, my own life was neglected.

I wasn't doing me.

I wasn't with me.

I wasn't feeling me.

I wasn't here.

After losing myself yet again trying to figure them out, I stopped.

I left them all to fend for themselves; which freed me up to do my own life.

What I know for sure, is that the things that seem the worst often reveal to us our biggest gifts. 

I am so completely grateful that I was given the eyes to see the truth, no matter how horrible it was to see.

For, in doing so, I was able to then change my life completely.

What I had first blamed on the church and family, actually turned out to be Me.

I was the cause of all my angst.

I was the one who was not seeing their truths.

And, my own.

I wasn't looking deep enough in my own life, at my own needs, secrets, beliefs, thoughts, prejudices…

It is so damn easy to ask someone else to change; but try and change your own mind.

Try and sway your own sense of the world to see a new view.

What is so disempowering is to try and change other people.

It completely leaves you powerless.

What I also think is so telling, is that many hung their hats on someone else being the change they wanted to see in the world.  Yet real lasting change happens at home.  Not only at home; but in your very own life.

I feel so unaffected by the election.

Now.

And, when there are applicable results in my world that will be asking me to respond, I will.

What I know for certain, is that my peace, love and joy are not held in another's hand.

I am no longer a codependent upon an outer world to make me feel a certain way.

The deeper we are rooted in who we are and our understanding of humanity; the more compassionate and at peace we are.

Upheaval is natural.

It too has its own feelings. 

Feel it.

And find your center in the midst of chaos.

Ask, what is the chaos showing us?

What can we learn from this?

About ourselves.

What I know, is that throwing words at a mind that is unconvinced only wears you out…and keeps you out of your own life.

The greatest way we can affect change is to be the change we want to see.

Do, what you wish they would do.

My life has prepared me for this.

To find peace and not be defined by others.

What I also know, that when I worked so hard to change others, I learned the most about myself.  So, what you think is their lesson, could really be yours.

What is this here to teach me, is what we should all be asking.