I M Perfect lady

In listening to a podcast, I heard a new way to look at changing behaviors that are not good for us.

The idea is, that we are triggered, we behave and then we reap the reward.

What was different this time, was the content of the reward – "Feeling Bad".

If you sit with that awhile, you will see how your behaviors often leave you feeling bad; compared to feeling healthy, excited, accomplished etc.

When I overeat on sweets, my reward isn't that I feel great.

Not like I do when I ride my bike for an hour, or hike in the woods, or kayak etc.

Somehow, I strive or seek to feel bad.

Was, or is, this my neutral state?

Is this where I like to settle back into?

Is it my home state?

My triggers to eat are often boredom, or even the need to give myself a sweet treat; which really is a dose of feeling bad.

While we may think, our minds are the ones who are controlling our habits, it may be more our feelings.

We long to feel a certain way.

I wonder how much of other behaviors leave me feeling poorly?

In the podcast, they suggested to eat with awareness, not control.  To eat cupcakes until you feel the feeling of feeling bad.  Our minds may need the experience to stop the behavior.

The distance I often feel between the taste of sweets and the sluggish feelings, leaves me not believing that the thing I ate a half hour or so ago, IS the cause of me feeling lazy.

This is one area that needs my attention. I am getting better at moving and I enjoy it.  I enjoy it while doing it and after.

With Sweets, I enjoy the eating part, but not the after.

As, I am sure it is with any addiction.

While consuming it feels fine; but the end results are not.

My goal will be to find ways that I can feel good during the whole process.

Perhaps controlling our feelings will change the way we behave.

When we focus on the triggers or the behaviors, we neglect our feelings.  

I even wonder if I had eaten poorly to mask the underlying feelings?

And, that just became a habit.

Now I need to focus on how I feel, and from there my behaviors will change.