Author: bjukuri

  • Heading East

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    It was a breath of fresh air to leave the city behind and back to the mountain drives – heading towards the Tetons and Yellowstone.

     

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    Soon we were on a desolate stretch of road – miles and miles of seemingly black and white.  

    Beautiful in its simplicity.

     

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    Our intention was to head into the Teton Mountains – Jackson Hole and up through the south east corner of Yellowstone.

    We spent the night in a small town heading north to Jackson.

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    In the morning we continued North seeing more incredible mountain sights.

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    We could see the traces of recent snows – but the roads were bare and the skies were clear.

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    I'll be honest, I was a bit concerned to be heading towards the mountains again – and seeing them snowcovered.

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    The skiing appears to be in town in Jackson Hole.  This ski hill was closing on Sunday – we were there on Saturday.

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    This is the Million Dollar Cowboy bar – that my husband remembers when he was young going to.  40 plus years later and it is still a popular watering hole. 

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    Around the town square they had these antler arches. Very western.

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    Leaving Jackson Hole heading up to the Tetons, the snowbanks were so high, we didn't explore too much – we couldn't see over them and it was cloudy – so not to much to see.

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    Thankfully it wasn't snowing – but you can see they had just gotten a whole bunch – which is why the Road that passes through Yellowstone was closed and would be until late May.

    They had it open for a few miles; but there wasn't much to see besides the snow.

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    Just to give you an idea.

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    And once you left the mountain tops, back to dry roads. It would seem impossible that we were just in snow higher than our car.

    So we then decided to hit Custer Park and the Badlands heading East. 

     

     

  • Stir my Soul More

    After Zion, we headed north to the Great Salt Lake. It was nothing like I expected.

    The day we were there, many small birds (maybe ducks) were dead on the beach.

    The smell alone made it a less than desirable lake. 

    There was an open pit mine near by – we were a week early – for the three hour tour. 

    Again, IF you plan – these things you would know. Next time. I will have to do some research before we leave home.

    Also by the beach we were at was a Music Venue.

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    These mountains were in our windshield for miles.

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    It got a bit crazy around Salt Lake City.  We drove through and went to the Salt Lake First

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    It was a bit hazy – but we got the idea of the lake.

     
     
    At an average water level of 4,200 feet, the lake is approximately 75 miles long and 30 miles wide, with 335 miles of shoreline.
     
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    Rugged Beaches here – there is an Island called Antelope Island, where they have better beaches. We choose not to go drive up there. 
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    This is another section, you can get to the water easily; but the smell of rotting birds made it less desirable.  We take for granted the pristine beauty and clarity of Lake Superior. I can't imagine swimming here – but the gentleman who took our Park Fee – said he does. And, that you can tell where you have a little cut, the salt gets into the wound.
     
     
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    This was the music venue.  There was a gentleman there watching the gate – expecting crowds of young folk.
     
    We then drove to the mine – to discover we were a week early – so we decided to explore the Mormon Church. We didn't find the mega church; but found the city block where an older church was and their business offices and conference buildings.  They take up at least a whole city block.
     
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    It was weird to have the church surrounded by a fence – not real welcoming.
    Yet inside there were young folk willing and ready to talk about their religion.
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    I was intrigued enough to enter and see what was behind the fence.  The flowers were the most welcome sight. They smelled so delicious.  
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    They are a little beaten down – they were recovering from the latest snowfall.
     
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    Nature is my religion – and the church felt like a dismal place after the garden – let alone all the wonderful landscapes in the national parks.  
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    This is the church on Temple Street.  There were young girls – so innocent looking – doing their duty of sharing the message. 
     
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    One of their church's business offices/conference center. The religion is a big business - 
     
     "Citing some former employees of the fund, the WSJ report at the time said that the Mormon Church's investment fund, Ensign Peak Advisors, had assets worth about $80 billion to $100 billion as of 2019, which easily surpass some of the biggest funds in the world such as Harvard University's endowment…"
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    This was in a dome shaped building next to the church. More young girls ready and willing to talk.  A man was playing an organ.  The stage and lights seemed out of place.  
    I am glad I saw it.     It was Easter weekend, so perhaps they were getting ready for a show/service.
     
    I know I am so jaded when it comes to religion. But the contrast between nature and religion and what parts of it stirred my soul.  I felt breathless and inspired by nature – and the Mormon church and city block of buildings that supported it – left me feeling its pretense.
     
    They say that less than 50% of the folks who live in and around Salt Lake are Mormons and the numbers are decreasing. 
     
    Knowing how a child can be made to follow any cult they are born into – and its costs.  I was relieved to have the city in our rearview.
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    It was refreshing to see city spaces – of art.
     
    For some reason these expressions stir my soul more.
     
     
  • More Left to Come Back For.

    After Bryce, we drove to Zion. This park the road goes through most of it.  At the Western end you can then take a shuttle to see deeper in to the park. They no longer allow traffic to just drive through this section – unless you are a guest at their lodge and perhaps camping.

    What I didn't know, until we got on the shuttle, was that you couldn't just hike when you wanted. The hiking reservations had to be made one day in advance.  So, needless to say I didn't hike.  

    There was one I wanted to see – the Narrows. I wouldn't have hiked in the water, but would have liked to see the beginning of it.

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    I had bought a lifetime pass for National Parks and this really came in handy – for all the parks were now free. Or we got our money back – more or less.

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    Again nature was so incredible.  It was actually hard to take it all in.

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    This tunnel was 1.1 miles long. There were windows here and there.  I tried to capture the windows in the side of the huge rock mountain – but I was shooting into the sun.

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    Just above the green is one of the windows. It is crazy to think how they made a tunnel and how it doesn't collapse with the weight of the mountain on it. This too gave my nerves a bit of worry. I just kept being curious and the nervousness took the backseat.

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    It was a nice day for a ride through Zion.

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    These goats enjoyed climbing the rocks.

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    It was simply amazing to see such sights.

    I can see why these parks are crowded and how they have to start limiting the folks who are out and about on the trails etc. Yet at the same time, we who road trip without reservations and go where our curiosity takes us – get caught missing out.  

    At least there still was plenty to see from the car.

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    There is much to see in this part of Utah. More left to come back for.

     

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  • Work of Art that Nature Made.

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    We left Arches and drove to Richfield for the night.

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    I was getting used to seeing the Mountains on the horizon.  They were so fascinating to watch and wonder how we would go through/over them.

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    We went out to dinner and this is the sight that greeted us. Of course the moon appeared much larger to the naked eye.  

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    The next day we drove to Bryce Canyon National Park. You did not need a reservation – but most of the park was closed due to snow.  We did however get to see a wonderful canyon. I would have like to hike on the bottom – not on the sides or rim of the canyon.

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    First we drove through red rocks and tunnels.

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    There was a short paved path, so my husband was able to see the canyon too.  Yes we found more snow!  But it was warmish – like mid 40's. Perfect hiking weather. I would have needed my snowshoes.  Didn't think to pack them.

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    The view did not disappoint.  There is a trail that starts at the top and has switchbacks down – there were boot tracks, even though the sign said 'trail closed'.

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    I would love to go back there some day and hike.

     

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    He loves to be right near the edge to see it all.

    It actually was neat to see it in the winter.  Kids of all ages were climbing around the rim with yak tracks and some with snowshoes.  I can't imagine being here in the heat of the summer.  An incredible work of art that nature made.

     

     

  • Waiting to Get In

    The next day's plan was to get to Arches National Park.  To enter this park you have to make a reservation. Some spots are filled months out and then there are opportunities the night before – at 6pm they open the link to apply for a spot.  

     

    I was a bit worried we would drive all the way to Moab and not get in.

    But, we got our spot. I was so excited.

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    We had the perfect day – bright and clear!  

    The landscape started to change.

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    And we started spotting jeeps. Big groups of jeeps.  They were on trails on the sides of these hills or formations.

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    And the landscape just kept getting better.

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    While we were waiting for our reservation time of entering Arches, we drove into the town of Moab.  And the Jeeps were everywhere – all sizes, colors and some were outfitted to the limit. I wish I would have taken pictures, but we were so enthralled by the volume of Jeeps.  A sign then clued us in "Moab Jeep Fest 2023".  

    So some of the jeeps were out on trail rides of various levels of skills.  

    This all tickled me – being a former Jeep owner.

    I loved seeing them all.

     

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    I was so excited to start going on short little hikes that led to wonderful views. 

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    The arches are incredible to see and climb near.

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    The trails were so exciting, you never knew what sight you'd see over a hill or around the corner.

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    I love the Juniper trees – They smelled so good!

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    And I loved the cactus in the park.

     

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    It was perfect hiking weather – mid 40's.  

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    Perhaps because we don't have these plants, I loved seeing them.

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    The Arches National Park was one of my favorites – maybe because I was able to hike on so many trails.  My husband was so patient and let me explore to my hearts content.  It would be cool to be there in the night too – to see the stars through the Arch Windows.

    I am so happy we were able to get in.

    I wasn't a fan of the reservation system, until we were in and the crowds were controlled. I think they are on to something, even if it is inconvenient and troublesome for the older not so internet savvy folks.

    I get it though.  

    Even in the early spring, there were lines waiting to get in.

     

  • Our Car Moving Forward.

    We left the kids and headed south into Wyoming – on our way into Colorado. 

    There are a lot of fields to travel through between South Dakota and Wyoming.  

    Dropping into Colorado, the fun began.

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    It felt good to be in a snowless place – or almost. I did a short hike along the path and over the river.

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    This was a neat art installation at a park along a river – on our way to Estes Park CO.

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    It was fun seeing the mountain goats – near Rocky Mountain State Park.  (Which was closed due to snow)

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    It was exciting to see this Elk – he was with a few ladies.

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    I walked down a few streets in Estes Park and happened upon a cool gallery.  I LOVED the colors and the wonderful pieces of glass.  

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    I can see how these would be super fun to create. 

    It was just fun to be in the presence of some cool art things!

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    We had a nice dinner at a Nepal Diner that evening. I had planned on going into town again in the morning, but….

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    We woke up to this sight out of our Hotel window.  The night before you could see the mountains in the distance – now it was hidden behind the falling snow.

    Falling snow.

    And we had opted to take off the winter tires before leaving – so with summer tires and mountain roads. My option was to stay put.  To weather out the late spring storm by exploring town and maybe going to see a movie.

    My husband's idea was to drive out of it. 

    And, so we did.

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    Down the mountain roads winding and climbing – with cars and trucks racing past.  Oh my  heart. It was bad enough on the flat interstate – I had been in terror.  Now.  Now on the mountain roads. It was so insane- it was hysterical – funny but so not funny.

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    You never knew what was around the corner. More slush, more snow coming down, too many vehicles etc. Plus it felt to me – like we were all racing down the mountain. I purposely didn't look over to see how fast my husband was going. I tried to breathe calm into our car.

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    When there were snowbanks, I actually felt better.  Something between me and the edge of the mountain.  I would not have dreamed we would run into this sorta weather again – after the Fargo Bismarck stretch.  

    What was so triggering for me, was the unknown and weird way it would be. We'd go from dry roads and then back to slush.  Just when I would think we'd be out of it, up over a summit we would go and more snow and slush.

    Driving down from Estes Park into Boulder and down to Golden was all on slushy roads. Winding turning.  We did not see the beauty that I am sure is there on a nice dry clear day.  But, I was happy to be down – more or less.  Well – I thought I was done with the snowy roads. They followed us through Vail and pass what I am sure are delightful sights – on a clear day.  

    West on I-70 we drove – with little surprises of snow along the way. But, we also saw some incredible mountains – when it cleared.

    We stayed in a cool mountain town and I was feeling relaxed that the snow was behind us.

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    Lots of the western towns have incredible street art.  

    Cheyenne, where we stayed the first night after leaving the kids – had wonderful murals on its buildings. We also toured the Train Museum which was neat.  To see how the railway opened up the west.  

    After a day of mountain roads and snow – was longing for the hundreds of miles flat plains we traveled through.

    My husband said it takes you two days of driving before you start to see some spectacular views.  

     

    By the way riding with a retired snowplow driver – has its advantages and downsides.

    He appeared to have no fear of snow, mountains and speeding vehicles.

    And on a side note. The mountain road we came down – a semi truck went off the road coming up.  His cab was hanging off the road – his trailer and not sure what else kept it from going all the way over. We saw more cars in the ditch, more accidents happened. There were travel delays on the opposite side of the road.

    Oh, and this is an interstate. So we had two lanes going down. Cars would fly by you – with confidence of a fool.  

     

    An experience I will not soon forget – and I am grateful for my husbands ability to keep our car moving forward.

     

  • First stop of our Road trip.

    We took a Spring vacation – heading south and west – towards the mountains.

    Stopping first to see our two grandchildren in North Dakota.

    They were so fun and warmed right up to us.

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    But first we had to drive through some nerve wracking roads for me.

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    The pictures don't show the slush and crazy drivers. 11 in the ditch in 198 miles – between Fargo and Bismarck – one landed on its roof.  It made for an intense ride.   I tried really hard to be quiet.  

    I now have much respect for the winter winds and snow across the interstate in the Dakotas.

     

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    But these two!

    Oh my gosh it was so fun to spend time with them. They are growing and getting really good on their bikes!

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    They really love being outside. 

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    And they were my helpers as we tried to set up the serger's so my daughter can start sewing some fun outfits.

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    They are lucky their mom takes them outside each day and there are lots of parks and trails there to explore.

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    We had a girls lunch.  She was so so good!

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    Her level of focus is incredible.  She is learning to color the picture.

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    And it was a treat to go in the restaurant – and have ice cream – and this a mini ice cream cupcake.

    The boys went to the farm.

     

    It was the best – our first stop on our Road Trip.

     

     

  • Beyond Retirement

    Life is interesting when you get into your retirement years. The time opens up and responsibilities fade away – and you now get to choose what you want to do.

     

    While freedom sounds good – I feel that it is also complicated.

    I believe I was able to hide behind responsibilities and that it is easier to just get in line and do a job.  It is much harder to not waste a life.

    A part of me wants to make a difference in my life. I want to live a life I don't regret.

     

    This first year I learned I am a homebody.

    I can let time slip by being lazy.

     

    I don't want to coast my last years of my life – I want to be intentional.

    I want to have dreams and then fulfill them.

    I don't even know though, what my dreams are.

     

    I think dreaming was a luxury, I never entertained.

    I first need to learn how to dream and seek out things that will add color and texture to my life.

     

    I have been responsible for others for so so many years.  Responsibility overshadows dreams. 

    I don't know if I was taught not to dream; but I wasn't taught to dream.

    It seems fanciful and nonsensical.

     

    Like life wasn't meant for dreams but built for responsibility.

     

    Live like you are dying becomes more real after retirement. You enter into the stage of the end.  There isn't another big milestone after retirement – this is it – until we exit the stage.

     

    I want live live.

    To do things that have meaning.

    and depth to me.

     

    As I exited out of my dysfunctional family – I was very engaged in doing what was best to leave a legacy that was less toxic.  What I may have failed to do was to show how to live a fanciful life.

    A life of dreams, adventures and joy and love.

     

    How now to fancy up my life and add tone and texture and glitter.

    It was important for me to live my truth, to find my authenticity – to drill down to the core of who I am and heal my brokenness.  And, it is equally important now to have fun. To live joyfully and dream of fun things.

     

    I get a catch in my throat of how responsible I have been and how dreamless.

    There is a feeling of guilt even contemplating fanciful just for me.  Or gifting me and myself nonsensical adventures.  

     

    I don't yet know who I will be when I grow up.  

     

    Perhaps we have dreams – dreams for our children and our grandchildren. We have dreams of being an example of a mom who does hard things. Just not fancy dreams.

     

    Instead of retirement years, we should call these dream years.

    Retirement means to stop working.  There should be another word for it – when we now have time to dream.

    I looked up the word dream and the second part is this "indulge in daydreams or fantasies about something greatly desired. "she had dreamed of a trip to Italy."

     

    Indulging in daydreams or fantasies isn't something I have done – especially just for me.

    Just for me does seem indulgent.

     

    I am going to become indulgent and dream.

    Learning to dream beyond retirement.

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  • Lookalike.

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    This is the Art Director posing with my quilts. I LOVE how she chose to interact with my art.  This will be one of my favorite photographs.

     

    There was an artist reception for me and I decided that I would get others to interact with my art.

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    It was so much fun! 

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    When your face is being taken care of – you then use your body to express yourself. 

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    We all smiled big behind the quilt. Just a reflex when someone takes your picture, you put your best face forward.

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    The fun we had with these faces will encourage me to make more. 

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    Interacting with my art, brought a lighthearted fun energy to the space!

     

    It was exciting for me to create them, and then fun to display them; but way more fun to pose with them.  And, what is even more exciting is that two women saw themselves in my art.  Two have found new homes with their lookalike.

     

     

    (My quilts are being featured at the Gallery on 5th Street in Calumet until February 4th – where you can go and pose with a face.)

     

  • Exercise in Imagination

     

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    She hasn't always been sure of love and the sentiments of Valentines.  

    It seemed to her it was a made up holiday; one where you forced love upon unloving things.

    Hearts were repelling, as was the color pink.

    Romantic seemed to be a game in play acting.

     

    Until

    She loved herself.

     

    Now she sees what all the fuss was about.

    How it is to celebrate the heart and how it can break and still feel love.

    It seems the greatest part of her lives – from her heart.

     

    Perhaps being comfortable in her own love of self – allowed her to feel the solidness of love.

     

    Whereas before – prior to self love – it was all just a exercise in imagination.