For the past year or more, while delivering mail it has occurred to me that I am just the middleman, but many act like I am the one who decides what they receive in their mailbox.
They are thrilled when I deliver a package they ordered, but in a few weeks when I drop off the bill, they seem disappointed and even sometimes angry.
How quickly they forget the thrill of the package and what ever it contained, I guess by the time the bill comes the happiness has waned.
There is a definite similarity between being a mailman and being the Universe.
All we are is the system or the one bringing you what you asked for, or the consequence to a behavior. I am not certain you can understand this. But I felt a kinship to the Universe in being held responsible for things that others are doing to themselves.
I have literally no control over what comes in the mail and what goes out, they seem to lose sight of themselves and their actions that are directing the kind of mail that arrives.
We, the mail people are powerless. The power lies with the box holder, the owner of the box!
In my life the more I watched how my actions or non-actions precipitated a certain result, the more and more I became watchful. What we do in this step today, will bring something in the future.
It is like we are always ordering from the Universe, always requesting something, we just have to watch what comes and then walk backwards to see when you ordered that.
There isn’t an unkind Universe for some and then a kind Universe for others, it is just like a Big Mail man, and your life is your mailbox.
As I am tentatively contemplating whether to begin a new relationship with my sister, I am in the middle of the action.
How I approach this action today will decide what the future will be.
I could ignore all my inner instincts and she could too, and we could hop into our old pattern.
But the Universe would not be to blame for how it turns out, we are.
We are literally the ones we are waiting for. As Ghandi says, “Be the change you want to see in the world.”
I have to be the change. I have to be the one to speak up, to request what I need, to be the voice, I can’t just sit back and hope that things will iron out eventually. I have to be the one to do the ironing!
The Universe and I are a team. I understand that I have just as big of a part as the Universe.
It is like blaming the mirror for you looking the way you do, for not combing your hair. It can only change if you are willing to do the work, or be the change, or walk the walk.
The mirror is only telling you what it is you are doing.
It didn’t messy up your hair.
If you look around your life, who is there and what do they look like, act like, be like?
They are there because you said it was ok for them to be there. You said it, or maybe you didn’t say that it was not okay.
I love that I am the ‘change’ I see in the world, that it is up to me to be a full participant, and I love how the Universe just abundantly and lovingly gives me whatever it is I ask for.
What I also love is that I am now learning what hurts and what doesn’t, what love is and what it isn’t. I am finally learning I am powerful in being me.