Today I listened to the CD of The Voice of Knowledge, by Don Miguel Ruiz and Janet Mills.
Here is how the book is described.
"In this audio version of the fourth book in the popular series, don Miguel Ruiz reminds readers of a profound yet simple truth: The only way to end emotional suffering and restore joy in living is to stop believing in lies – mainly about ourselves."
"Ruiz refers to the forbidden tree of knowledge, likening the abandonment of the true self to the fall from heaven. This fall, he says, occurred because of the loss of "the impeccability of the word," that simple yet potent prescription for countering the judgmental inner "Voice of Knowledge." Adhering to "the word" – saying only what one means, refusing to speak against one's self – allows anyone to quiet those inner tyrannical thoughts so that we can become aware of our Voice of Integrity. Knowledge then becomes an ally, and life becomes an expression of the authentic self."
As I listened to him, I could see how my own life was based upon lies and how I had great faith in those lies and had little or no faith in my own truth and integrity.
What this blog has been mostly about is re-discovering my truth and letting go of lies.
I have tried my level best to rid myself of inauthentic parts of me, the beliefs that kept me from my own love, peace and joy…and in doing so I oftentimes uncovered lies that many don’t want displayed openly. My truth-seeking mission has upset many an apple cart for me, but it seems it has little affect on others unless they are ready to receive the truth…if they are not ready, the truth will slip on by…and their cart of lies will remain steady.
I am not here to upset your cart of apples, but rather to find the rotten parts of myself, my lies. Sometimes my lies and your lies match and at others you will not agree…that is okay, I am here only to seek my own truth. Each of you will find yours in your own time. This is my journey towards truth in my life.
It was just great to listen to him speak about the conflict of lies and truth we all have within, and how in some the truth voice is louder than the lies.
If you have never questioned your mind, or explored how you came to believe this or that, your lies remain unchallenged…or your truth unearthed. Your lie voice may be louder for it has had free reign.
I had buried so many truths, so much hurt I piled into a hole not to be touched, emotions shoved aside, etc…all to be more comfortable I lived lies. My lie voice liked it that way.
We think lies are bold and in your face, but they are not.
Mostly what I think is truth comes in and we push it away, not wanting to deal, to see or feel.
So we lie. We lie to ourselves and say everything is okay.
I only stopped lying to myself when all my lies came home to roost at one time. There was an avalanche that I couldn’t stop…all my lies lay at my feet exposed for the traitors they were. Their powerful deceit was bigger than any lie I could conjure up.. to cover them all up again. It had grown too huge. My lie voice died and my weak truthful voice started to speak.
It gained power with each truth I told.
I am wondering if there is a room where lies go and will it explode on everyone at one time or another?
When my life of lies exploded I was left with my soul eyes. My body seemed to have eyes in feelings; intuitively I sorted out my life…I began speaking from deep inside, paying little heed to the outside disputes.
While it seemed like the worst day of my life, it was actually the first day of the rest of my voice of integrity life. A life without lies.
No more lies.
Not to me and not to you.
Not to make you feel better or more at peace for your comfort or for your ease.
No more lies to my self.
For I lost myself behind a sea of lies…and it took me years to unhook myself from the beliefs and faith I had in these lies.
My voice is the voice of my truth.
I M Perfect lady 