I M Perfect lady

emotions

  • Neglecting None

    In last nights role play at Dial Help, we learned about depression, or experienced what it feels like to answer the calls…or even more important, how it feels to sit in the emotion with them or 'try and fix things'.… Continue reading

  • Feelings feel felt.

    "The fastest way to freedom is to feel your feelings."  Gita Bellin "This sounds pretty simple, but though it's easy to know you have feelings, easy to know their weight and agitation and suddenness of mood, it is another, more… Continue reading

  • Days to Slip By

    My brother's Excel class had him calculating out the number of days he has lived so far, and I did the same.  Today is number 19,365 for me! That is how many mornings I woke up and seen a new day.… Continue reading

  • The Grieving Process

    I am rereading Melody Beatte's book, "Codependent No More," and I am very surprised to see how she spends a lot of time on the grieving process. She writes, ‎"A codependent person or a chemically dependent person may be in… Continue reading

  • Recognize the Real Me.

    I wonder why it is so hard to look objectively at your self, why it is so hard to see that which you are. Doesn't it seem literally impossible to overlook yourself while you are being yourself?  Why is it… Continue reading

  • Protected me.

    For six years I have been saying that I have no memory, and I have lied. I have no mind memory, but my body has always had its memory. I don’t have actual vivid stories to recount, but I do… Continue reading

  • Trajectory of my life.

    Going to sleep last night with tears drying on my cheeks, after feeling the feelings of being a child with no one at your back, to feel the absence of protection of safety, and feeling the feeling of free falling… Continue reading

  • Attend to me.

    In the past few days I have been tangled and untangled, in the present and in the past, with my mother and with my boss, young and then old, a child then an adult, feelings from the past trickling into… Continue reading

  • Dismissing the Messenger.

    In Michael Brown’s book The Presence Process, he speaks of dismissing the messenger. “The first step is to acknowledge that the person or event setting us up has nothing to do with what is actually happening; they are just “the… Continue reading

  • Tamper with Reality.

    I was asked after my last blog, if others will think I am crazy, and perhaps they will. However, unless you have lived a life deeply in denial where your head view of life is not what is actually going… Continue reading