While thinking back upon my journey out of sexual abuse/incest, I wondered what was the one thing that made a difference, what one major item was my cure?
Cancer has drug treatments and therapies and it seems the body has lots of help to eradicate the diseased cells and again, I wondered about how abuse is similar but completely different.
It is like we the abused child are the cancerous cells, and we have to leave the tumor.
There is no treatment for us; it is up to us to save ourselves.
What other diseases are healed by the sick cell?
It seem preposterous to know that we are the ones we are counting on and in order to be healed of incest, you must leave the family where it originated, your family of origin.
So, in order to heal you must go against and away from your family and most often friends.
We leave the ones who others use to help in times of sickness, they are no available to use, for it is from them that our healing lies.
I just found this very odd that we the dysfunctional, the broken down and confused are the ones to lead the charge, the ones put in control of our wellness.
And we have to go against family and friends to achieve this task, the ones who have used and abused us are now there to holler and insult as we make our way away.
Heading into an unknown land hoping for a new start a new self, a place where we can undo the dysfunction and make us function.
We need to function to handle our dysfunction.
Incredible…this self healing healing stuff!
Which is why the rate of success is so very small. I wish I had the numbers, but I don’t. In my family of 16, including me, two of us so far have managed to stay away from the tumor.
Two of us are seen as outcasts…and we are, we had to cast ourselves out of the disease, no one but your self can save your self. It is as if you are on fire and you are the fireman.
This just boggles my mind and I am in complete awe that one as upside down and twisted was able to get myself free.
I do recall in the beginning how the pull was to go back, to make the tumor benign to make the family whole so that I could be with them….but it soon shown me I was all I could save, each cell is on its own.
No one is coming to save you, you have to save yourself.
I M Perfect lady 