I M Perfect lady

When I had written the ‘community approval’ concept down yesterday, it followed me one step behind, lingering and pestering me, as to why?

Why do I seek to find affirmations about my life in others, or why does someone disagreeing with me threaten me?  Why are there always they and we, two sides, friendly and foe?

Why can’t it just be one whole bunch, like we are all equal?

And it then occurred to me that the bases of my old religion was that we were special, the chosen one, the one and only path to God, the right Church, and all who didn’t believe as Us, went to Hell.  Them and us a definite split, God’s children and I guess the Devil’s spawn.

It was from this basis I was raised always seeking to divide and separate.

In fact it was preached to us to stay away from the enemy, to only congregate with our own.

There is this identifier within me, this mode of operating that I seek only those who match me, and then disregard the rest.

It is an enemy reflex muscle, always scooping the terrain for the ‘other’!

I can feel how this plays out everywhere in my life, in little nuances and in large ways, always on the look out for the enemy and to self protect.

I am now outside of the narrow religion but still using its tools to navigate and to communicate. 

With the dawning yesterday I feel that that old tool lost its power, and that I will now operate from the standpoint we are all equal, totally, there is no enemy.

In fact the only enemy is believing there is an enemy.

The only enemy was my belief.