I M Perfect lady

Every time I read a quote about waiting…that "your time is coming" or be patient and good things will come, I bristle.

It is a maddening scheme to keep you from enjoying what you have.

Or, at the very least, keeping you from seeing what is here, in the here and now. 

It is ruse by the mind to control your world.

What if you understood, to the marrow of your bones, that all we have is today?

What would you do?

What IF this is as good as it gets?

When I was sitting in my darkest days after discovering my abuse and that my father was a pedophile; my future was even darker.

The reel that was running proclaiming a brighter future was destroyed.

Even my mind wasn't convinced of a brighter day ahead.

However, as odd as it may seem, it was there that I found extreme simple joys.

Or, perhaps, the joys were outstanding among such ugliness.

The juxtaposition of evil compared to a brilliant sunrise, a bird singing or rain falling. Even the feel of my cozy robe as I watched flames dance in the fireplace – while my mind was spinning out of control with so many new horrifying truths.

What I know, is that don't buy into a brighter future; that this moment in time is not good. That better days are coming.

Instead seek to find the million morsels of happiness and joy in this day, this hour and right now.

It is there.

Dancing delightfully; always.

It doesn't matter how dark your world is – running right along side it are natures magical displays.

I recall, that for a few days or maybe weeks, I would just sit and watch birds. 

It may have been surrendering to what is that brought me to the present.

And, in the present moment were a zillion things to focus on.

When reality's truth overwhelmed me, when my emotions were overflowing, I watched nature's slow steady show.

It wasn't "coming someday", it was here.

I didn't have to work, strive, perfect or achieve.  I didn't have to heal first or find an answer or the right guru or book or group.  I literally could sit and look out the window.  Or, rush into the waiting arms of nature to walk and cry and sort and be and breathe.

Just stop the reel in your mind that wants to convince you that today isn't good.  That your future is better than right here.

Right here, today is where you will find the magic.

Look

Smell

Listen

Be

You are already where the mind believes it can take you.

I also had to literally pat things to remind me of this.

To quiet the mind.

I would touch something.

Shake my head to stop trying to predict the future and be here now.

Don't believe the quotes that promise something tomorrow.

You are living it now.

There is no doorway to someplace special in the future; there is only the doorway to Now!  There is no certain path or right way or perfect action. There is only you being you and doing what brings you love peace and joy. 

So, relax and turn your attention and seeking and desires to today.

See all that is being offered in this moment of time.

Be so busy in this moment; that you have no time to dream about the future!  

Art doesn't wait

or plan

Art happens when you play.

When you drop the mind's chatter about when and if and what if.

Life is the same.

It is a river of time and experiences waiting for you to jump in.

No requirements needed; but to be awake in this moment and accepting all that it is.

Inclusive

Illusive

Fleeting

Alive

Living Art is who you are!