“To free us from the expectations of others, to give us back to ourselves — there lies the great, singular power of self-respect.” Joan Didion
Today was the 78th day in a row of doing Bikram yoga, and I am still stretching into places I have never been before, with my body, mind and inner knowing.
It is crazy to have ridden around in this body and not really used it to its fullest potential; I have lived backwards in so many areas or upside down and sideways.
I am feeling freedom and innocence that I have never felt before
My previous relationship with self was for others, and had little do with me. Imagine I was not living for me!
I was living for your good approval, your wellness, happiness, comfort and the whole while neglecting my self!
Abandoning it while using it. Which seem really pathetic.
How can I save you while I am dying? How can I teach you to take better care, while I am a wreck?
Doing this yoga each day for the last 2-½ months, has brought my attention, focus and care back to me. I am for the first time ever spending time each day for my body.
A few days ago, I realized “I have my own life!” I said it out loud and more than once, “I have a life!”
Feeling that I have my own separated life is like being cut free from a bossy Siamese twin! I am free!
Yoga turns you right side up and sets you free.
I have a life!