It is so easy to fall out of sight of your self, to disappear and only catch fleeting glimpses through out the day. It is amazingly easy to not see and pay attention to your inner world and to be present and aware to all things.
When I did yoga each morning I was with myself for an hour and a half. I was with each breath and focused on my body, and when I stopped doing yoga, I spend very little time paying attention to me.
I miss being with me in such a concentrated healthy way, watching my body become stronger and more flexible, being with the emotions that seemed to flow from my muscles, to gaining balance inside and out.
It has been good as well to see how I seem to disappear from my self while being here, how I can lose sight of my wellness and get lazy…fall back into a sea of apathy.
It’s easier to do nothing…
It takes time, effort and its much more difficult to be on task of being the caretaker of you.
You have to carve up your time each day making sure you take a good chunk for yourself.
I used to do this right away each morning, starting out my day with me in focus, and that set the tone for the rest of the day.
I would then have my best interest front and center.
I am toying with the idea of getting back into the demanding routine of daily yoga. Perhaps taking one day off each week.
By doing this all things in my life go better; I move better, feel better, sleep better, am much more alert, aware and see clearer…and I am lonesome for that self.
I allowed my self to start fading away, to drift along in the sea of life without really paying attention to where I am going.
Yoga brings me back to me and I feel a greater connection to the Universe…
The wise people are right, you do get what you focus on.
I was not focusing on me and I faded.