(Awakening Intuition by Dr. Mona Lisa Schulz)
Maintaining the Façade.
When I told you about my brush with death at Brown, I said that the feeling I had was that of my façade falling away, so that nothing stood between me and the world around me and I could sense my complete oneness with the Universe and all its beings. This, in fact is a very common experience for people who’ve come close to death, whether through illness or accident or some other life-threatening event. They immediately get in touch with their seventh emotional center. They suddenly see life in a completely different way. They experience what is known as primary intensity, which means that they feel life in a particularly immediate and intense fashion. They feel things, hear things, and see things with great clarity. Nothing separates them from the raw energy of life around them. No veil obscures the harsh realities of human existence or cloaks the full exhilaration of passion and creativity. These people have no more façade.
As most of us go about our day-to-day business of living, our façade protects us from the more difficult, less pleasant aspects of the world, and the human beings we share it with, such as all the constant, sometimes necessary hypocrisy that permeates human dealings. In fact, people who lose their facades find this very difficult to bear; they can’t listen to others tell even little white lies, watch the games we play, or observe their manipulations and machinations without having a strong negative reaction. While this sort of greater honesty might seem like a good thing, it can actually make life in some ways more difficult and painful, because it sets you apart and can make you seem irritable and antagonistic.
Another consequence of not having a façade is that it also opens you up completely to intuition. When your façade is removed, nothing stands in the way of your feeling all the world and tapping directly into the pool of intuitive knowledge. That can be, of course, wonderful. But there’s a danger in losing your façade. While it means that you can all at once hear or see or feel everything that’s going on, you can go too far into the vulnerable aspect of this and begin to hear everyone’s thoughts and feel everyone’s pain, even literally, in your body. This can truly be extremely painful.
Surviving a near-death or life-threatening experience almost invariably changes people. A woman who comes close to dying from breast cancer but is pulled back by chemotherapy and radiation is changed to a certain degree, forever. Such people commonly make a lot of external changes in their lives as a reflection of this. They may change their jobs, their relationships, and a lot of other things. After about four years, a degree of normality returns, some of their façade will come back and they balance their seventh emotional center somewhat better between power and vulnerability, but they never completely lose that connection with the Universe that has been revealed to them……
When I read this part in her book it totally explained how I felt, how I was left standing naked against the world. And I could literally hear, see and feel way too much.
My husband said that I was like a scared rabbit when we would go out in public, and I literally felt that there was nothing to protect me. That I could feel the negativity coming at me, the false or insincere messages silently hitting me.
However, I was also extremely affected by nature and its glory, the immense beauty that seeped into me from there.
I was literally brought to tears each day seeing the sun shining as I stepped out for my walk.
To be open to the wonders of the world at the same time to feel the abrasive negative, left me forever charged, open and feeling, the best and the worst.
The façade I wore for 46 years was ripped off of me in one fell swoop, and left me standing there wide open. Now I have the explanation from a Medical person.
When I seemed overly sensitive, overly dramatic, and overly knowing, I was literally that!
Somehow someone’s experience that echo’s your own, makes you feel less weird.
And she is right, I have not lost the connection with the Universe, I still feel utterly connected. I also can hear, see and feel much much more than ever before, but I have also created more self- power, and less vulnerability.
My new façade or new me is so much more aware and feeling than the old me, and it has been about 4 ½ years so she is right, we do find a new normal.
I am blessed to have had my façade broken for it opened my connection to the Universe, and shown me who I really was.
My façade broke and there I was!
I M Perfect lady 