There is this thing called ‘something’ that keeps you from being totally happy, at peace…something precedes your every step and lives out in front of you stealing your peace, and when you can dismantle the something making machine, you will find life a friendly place to be.
It wasn’t until I lost ‘something’ that I found it had stood between life and me.
Perhaps it was the absence of desiring, wanting, being disappointed or stressed that felt odd, or the lack of plans or having to reach a certain place, that I realized it was gone.
This elusive something changes and ties strings to all your destinations and gatherings, it runs ahead and creates images for you to reach for and scurries off before you arrive, is always one step ahead of you.
In my mind it wasn’t crystal clear, what the something was, but I searched for it like a hidden treasure in each place when I arrived.
I had an image, a feeling or a desire to be fulfilled when I arrived. I sought it and when it wasn’t found, I left disappointed.
This future something rode ahead of my life planting little seeds of desire for me to harvest when I came behind it, sprinkling my world with what I thought were dreams, when in fact they were moment wreckers.
These moment wreckers became larger than reality, like an overlay, I sought them more than I appreciated what was actually there.
On my latest mini vacation, I was pleasantly surprised I had arrived ahead of something.
I arrived minus a preplanned or arranged idea in my head.
Usually, I had a something plan set in my head that a place had to match.
Whether it was a mood or experience I had to find a certain thing to make me happy. I didn’t arrive happy, but had to find something to make me so.
I may be unable to articulate this, but to travel with zero expectations, and instead see how you feel when you arrive is totally the opposite of my old traveling/living days.
Before a romantic getaway had to deliver a certain number of things to make it so, perhaps the right sunset, the perfect dinner, the right clothing, the awesome motel, the right weather, the right vehicle, the temperature…you get the picture.
In fact I painted a picture in my mind and then IF reality didn’t match most of it, I wasn’t fully satisfied.
And it can happen in the smallest of situations or on a weekend getaway or two week vacation. Prior to going your mind sets in motion a something trail that you have to follow and depending upon how many things you match, your trip will be a success.
Imagine the insanity of your trip having to measure up to a trip in your head, a desire or fantasy list?
This last little getaway I forgot to pack the list of something.
I had no preset emotions, feelings, desires and things to capture in order for it to be completed.
In its place instead was arriving…like a free motion painting.
Creating an artful vacation by being inspired in each moment, not knowing what you need until you see it, and bringing it in to your vacation instead of hunting for the right thing, the right thing came to you.
Giving up something you can greet everything as it is.
We came around a corner and this guy caught my attention…he was standing in front of an Art Gallery…he beckoned me inside.
I M Perfect lady 