I am thinking that the term, “she just snapped” or “she way flipped out” is used when we have a mental breakdown or a loss of control, and is seen as a negative explosion in your world.
But what is it really?
What have we been flipped out of or what has snapped within us, or what is breaking down?
In the middle of a breaking down or when you are flipping out and are in the midst of the agony and turmoil, when all that was normal is now gone, it is hard to see the wonderment of what is actually going on.
As I stood eyebrow deep in denial, when my illusions snapped and broke open, all hell broke lose, a waterfall of truth fell into my life.
And I flipped out.
I literally became undone.
I am sure I acted, sounded and appeared mentally unstable, and I was.
It seems to me, the more falsehoods your life holds, and the more things you fail to pay attention to, the bigger the waterfall when truth arrives.
What is so odd is that we don’t know we are building a tower of untruths, for that is what denial is, ‘a refusal to believe in something’
What we fail at most is believing in something that doesn’t exist.
Imagine that?
I believed in something that didn’t exit.
I built a whole life upon it, and I react violently when I discover the truth and my whole tower of denial came tumbling down.
It shook the foundation of who I was and it was from there I had to start fresh.
Putting me back together one piece at a time, like reconfiguring a puzzle, I had to look at what I failed to see, feel what I didn’t want to feel, and then recreate from there.
You would think the waterfall would be full of illusion type things, but instead it contained only truths.
Truths that I had not believed in.
That I had overlooked, looked around, let slide, turned way from, didn’t want to feel, didn’t want to see, didn’t dig into, all of them lay there.
Each and every thing I thought was behind me was actually within me waiting.
They washed over me and in a landslide type motion.
I became inundated with feelings, truths and understanding, seeing all that I had not believed in.
For me, flipping out was a good thing.
I flipped, snapped or broke into reality or what was/is.
For 46 years I had fully supported and lived for something that didn’t exist.
How grateful am I that I snapped!
I M Perfect lady 