Shutting the valves or entry points where I have allowed toxic behavior and or negative energy to seep in, feels soooo liberating, so empowering, so self loving, I feel so lightened by this, if only I knew that I wouldn’t feel alone, but empowered, I wouldn’t have waited so long.
The first time I left my family, I did so in fear, anger and anxiety, in moments of pure panic due to the way they were all acting, I segregated myself in solitary confinement in fear. Fear of who they were and how weak I literally was, I scurried to be far far away from them.
I was out of control in a lonely spot with raging fear, alone and empty inside, twisted up with confused and conflicting images, tangling love and fear, I had to run to survive, not knowing that I would survive…I left.
It wasn’t an act of courage or empowerment but an act of sheer terror.
The difference between fleeing in terror or fleeing with knowingly and great awareness are oceans apart.
One leaves you vulnerable and alone.
The other empowered and alive with great gusts of newfound peace, like breathing or not breathing.
Breathing with the right to orchestrate your world, using your free will to close the source of pain that flows into your world.
What a great thing to know, how empowerment is grown, it is birthed by making a choice, using your awareness and seeing the cause, doing what you can to eliminate it in your world.
This isn’t at all about them, but about you.
You have the right to open and close relationships.
I love that I found the energy to use the switch, to flip the button to off.
It doesn’t change who they are, but it greatly changes their impact in my world. Little did I know, even though I left the window open, that I was the one I was waiting for…
Inside, as my tank overflows with empowerment, my soul cheers!
(I think I scored one for me!)
I M Perfect lady 