What I didn’t know about self love is that it wasn’t a word in the head,
a thought in the mind or even a feeling, but rather Actions.
The actions you have towards yourself, not how you appear in public, how you walk,
talk or behave, but rather is is the obvious and the not so obvious.
Self love is the food you eat, to the way you move your body, to the places you bring it, to the people you subject it to, all comprise the love you have of your self.
Somehow I think I thought, it was a saying in my head.
Perhaps the absence of saying, “I hate myself.”
Yet my self hatred was exposed for all the world to see.
It was in the food I ate and how much.
It was in the way I didn’t exercise or even take my body out in the fresh air.
It was in the silence instead of speaking up, hidden in the yes when I wanted to say no.
All in all the evidence of self hatred lay literally everywhere, and no amount of positive affirmations planted on the pile of self neglect would change a thing.
I had to act differently.
I had to behave my way into love.