I M Perfect lady

“To free us from the expectations of others, to give us back to ourselves — there lies the great, singular power of self-respect.” Joan Didion

Today was the 78^th day in a row of doing Bikram yoga, and I am still stretching into places I have never been before, with my body, mind and inner knowing.

It is crazy to have ridden around in this body and not really used it to its fullest potential; I have lived backwards in so many areas or upside down and sideways.

I am feeling freedom and innocence that I have never felt before 

My previous relationship with self was for others, and had little do with me. Imagine I was not living for me!

I was living for your good approval, your wellness, happiness, comfort and the whole while neglecting my self!

Abandoning it while using it.  Which seem really pathetic.

How can I save you while I am dying?  How can I teach you to take better care, while I am a wreck?

Doing this yoga each day for the last 2-½ months, has brought my attention, focus and care back to me.  I am for the first time ever spending time each day for my body.

A few days ago, I realized “I have my own life!”  I said it out loud and more than once, “I have a life!”   

Feeling that I have my own separated life is like being cut free from a bossy Siamese twin!  I am free!

Yoga turns you right side up and sets you free.

I have a life!