I M Perfect lady

In Peace I Lay Down

As I lay in a floor pose in yoga today, I became aware of the lump in my chest, and I wondered what they would find at my sonogram today.

 

My doctor thought that perhaps it is an infected milk duct, and I thought while on the floor, how odd that is, since I am not nursing, I wonder how that could happen.

 

My next thought, what have I been nurturing or holding close like a baby to my chest and what energy is in this area?

 

The energy in this area is my heart, where I feel my feelings, where I express my self.

 

My next thought was that I have been holding close to me things that hurt me. 

 

Holding and wanting to nurture hurtful people, allowing them close into my space, opening my heart, and then getting hurt emotionally when I am misunderstood and once again and set outside.

 

There is not only an emotional toll, but also a physical toll this is taking on my body.

 

Today as I lay there I knew I had to let them out of my heart, let go of hanging on and release them…and the line in a hymn came in “God will take care of you…”

 

In tears and in peace I lay down.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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  1. Jane Bowen Avatar
    Jane Bowen

    I will lift you up in prayer today. May God grant you peace and strength. He has carried you this far, he will not fail you.
    Hugs,
    Jane

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  2. Carol Avatar
    Carol

    ..and He will. We just don’t always realize that He is.

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  3. I M Perfect Avatar
    I M Perfect

    Thanks Jane, I am in total acceptance, for I truly understand the source of my lump, of holding on to things I should have released, responsibilities that were not mine to carry, guilt for things that were not my fault, the list is long, and my body had to get my attention, and has.
    And Carol, I wasn’t wise enought to trust and let be, it seemed I needed to be worrying/trying and not allowing my self to feel the peace and silence I am now in…I carried into my space, keeping me agitated. I feel deeply that this all happened to release me from all that I carried, whether emotionally and subconsciously, it was draining energy out of me.
    The resounding “God will take care of you….” left me knowing I handed them over to a much more compassionate, wise, caring, loving, strong, Universe, who has carried them all along.
    I feel free….and time will tell what damage has been done, by carrying the weight of the world, that wasn’t mine to carry.
    Thanks again….your words are appreciated.

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