I M Perfect lady

I thought this blog was over when I had the realization that my daughter had my unconditional love, that when I hopped on the back of “Mr. Heart is as big as a House, that I completed my journey, that all I had to do was ride along, ducking when the shit hit the fan….

Nope, that isn’t it at all.

The second part of my ride has just begun.

I now know where I have been, what techniques I use for love and how and when to apply them, when I take out my tackle box and get busy.

It is each and every time a mess arrives and IF the mess is in someone’s life I love, well, get the hell out of the way, I am going in.

I slip off, okay I jump off the motor bike and leave my world behind, I roll up my sleeves pull out my tongue, engage my mental mind and I am in your business up to my neck, and Mr. Big as a House heart rides alone.

And here’s the deal when I leave Mr. Big Heart, I leave my own heart, my own love and passion and become stuck in the quick sand of your life.

That is what I do, Miss Mental Lady loves to play in your lives, your world, and moves around and the more she moves the more stuck she gets, it is indeed like quick sand.

What I need to do most is close my eyes, shut my mouth, and enjoy the ride.

If I am riding along and holding on and letting the Universe lead, I cannot be responsible, I cannot just jump into lives unasked, unsolicited…oh my God what a meddlesome woman, an unwelcome intrusion.

How much can you decide if someone is in there deciding it for you? Who needs a mind if my mental mind is coming to your rescue?

I know that Michael Brown of the Presence process says, “If you pick someone up, when you put them down, you put them back where you found them.”

While we think we are saving, we are delaying or stealing their lessons.

My job, my only job as I can see it now is to hold on to my business, my world, my joy, my love, my life and to gracefully sit silently looking upon my daughters and any other.

I had said to my mother, “Silence is the kindest thing I can offer…” Silence and a loving heart is the best of me I can offer, if my mind gets involved we are off to the races, the struggle of you running your life or me running your life.

Pick one.

If I don’t pick running my life, I have learned nothing.

I am back.

I am in my business.

Whew, another close call…

I am holding on Universe…here we go!

I keep forgetting I am not driving! UGH…
Backseat drivers only annoy whose driving.
It is best to sit back quietly and enjoy the ride.

The second part of this blog is me learning to walk the walk
of giving up control…