I awoke shortly after 6am and in no mood for yoga, the sun was just lightening the horizon, I couldn’t find a reason to begin.
In a place between doing it and not, I think I would have felt perfectly fine just sitting and waiting for the sun to shine in my face, starring mindlessly without having to expend one ounce of energy, suspended in a land where yoga never lived.
After letting my yoga buddies know that I would be taking their energy, down the stairs I went.
I wondered how this would work, me empty but willing to try.
Bikram didn’t know my feelings at all, he began with his full energy and didn’t spare me a bit, and I followed along, perhaps better than ever, just about doing every pose until he said, ‘change’ or ‘enough’. Incredible! I didn’t have the energy to protest.
In the Eagle, a thought came in, that without pain what would keep me doing this, what is the purpose for me doing this, if not to alleviate pain?
“Feeling good” landed in my body, to feel good? Wow.
It felt odd to acknowledge that I was doing something for me that felt good for me, that I felt good carrying around the rest of the day, and it was also sad, that I haven’t done things simply to feel good.
I am almost positive that I have never done something where the agenda was for ME to Feel Good, only ME!
Somehow before Eagle I was wondering what it would take to maintain this daily grind, what kind of energy I would need to keep up this regiment.
This regiment is to keep feeling good!
Isn’t that insane?
I call it a regiment, a hardship, a struggle, when what I am doing each morning is setting the tone, I am working to keep a set point of feeling good!
How in world is this so twisted upside down and backwards, that I am feeling a struggle to maintain a feeling good feeling?
And let me tell you all, I am feeling good, I am feeling a body that has muscles, that is stronger and looks better, clothes fit better, I walk straighter, head held high, and with good energy!
I have stated, that there is no ill side affects to this yoga.
And here is the deal, yoga makes you feel better, gives you a new body, a new mind and a new life, according to Bikram and I!
Yoga is the counterbalance to feeling bad, it will spring you ahead, not drag you back, even if it feels like you are going against the magnetic pull to begin, that all forces are against you starting, it is then that it is most critical in order to continue to feel good.
My maintenance routine or ‘regiment’ is to keep back the bad feelings, the dragging body, and no energy weighing down my life.
Inside I feel good about my inside and outside body!
I made it over the line, from feeling bad to feeling good!
I M Perfect lady 