A good friend responded to my post on Sprouting Self Hatred, with a great visual, a thought that I could picture.
“That picture is: yoga being poured as if out of a fancy vessel and killing the sprouting self hatred–over and over again. This yoga is like emotional Round-up!!!! What a concept. There is “out of body Beth” pouring Yoga on self- hatred.”
She is absolutely right, doing yoga has been killing me softly, the me that was birthed in Self Hatred.
Taking all the false beliefs and destroying them, eliminating the source of low self-esteem, little by little, pose by pose, I have been wrestling with hatred of self.
What a battle.
Sometimes it took Herculean energy to get me off the couch, out of bed, and on to the mat.
Bringing my old self to do yoga, an old self that didn’t have any energy to love me, to care for me, it was that person that arrived on the mat.
And each time I successfully accomplished another day of yoga, the hating me weakened and the Loving Me was strengthened.
The stronger love I have of self, the stronger I can love.
Jane Fonda yesterday was speaking to Oprah and she was talking about falling in love, how it is best to stand strong in love.
I am learning to stand strong in love of self.
I M Perfect lady 