I M Perfect lady

As I sat in a room with four other people, one was leading the class and the rest of us were to follow along.  It seems an easy task, to sit and be led, to sit and absorb, to be one with the whole class.

Yet I found myself not following along, but going against the other students. 

One wanted to know what was up ahead, had to know, what would come next, and couldn’t relax in this chapter, worrying about the unknown.

The other two wanted to either change the way things were being asked of us, or stepped into the past operation regaling us with stories that had nothing to do with where we were going.

Their nonsensical behavior was like a loud horn blast coming in and interrupting the flow, their worries/concerns/thoughts of past and future events bleeding into the now.

What a great thing to witness and a frustrating thing to be part of.

I seen how their minds kept leading them away from the task at hand, like pre-school aged kids they needed to be rounded up and brought back to class.

I just never thought that the hardest part of ‘teaching’ someone is to keep them present.

Their attention span was limited and as the afternoon progressed it became worse, and the more they stole time from training, the longer training became.

My patience of idling along in the present, while they played out in the past and future wore me out.

To sit and observe this behavior is so intrusive and rude to the present.

It is the ultimate battle in each situation, between what is now and what was or will be.

As I sat on the sidelines frustrated, I too was battling with what is, for I expected us to all remain in the present training.