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Don Miguel Ruiz said “There are two kinds of Angels, the angel of lies and the angel of truth.”

Isn’t it odd to look at the two different kinds of angels?

I know that my family does not like to see me as an Angel of Truth; they would love me much better as the Angel of Lies, and the way I used to be. 

Oh was I a good angel of lies.  I was the best, I would tell you anything you wanted to hear, but never, not ever the truth…for I wouldn’t want to hurt you.

I was a good angel of lies and my self suffered greatly. 

For in order to be a wonderful angel of lies, you lose your self.  You turn away from your own feelings, and choose not to see others in their true colors.

The Angel of Truth speaks with impeccable words, her actions match and she says what she has to say, no matter how they land upon your world.  

I have lived both ways and as the Angel of Lies, I seen the world through glasses that lied to me.  I lied and it lied back.

I pretended many things, overlooked much, and didn’t see life as it was in its naked rawness and beauty.

 While my journey has been horrific in many places, where the truth is exposed like a monster, I have also seen great beauty, love, peace and joy, that my lying angel refused to see.

When I first began to see without my lying eyes, I saw things that brought me to my knees, okay flat in bed. But those same eyes bathed my body in nature’s beauty.

I seen the sunrise and felt God looking upon me.  The night sky was filled with loving angels, the moon another loving presence.

I watched the flow of the river and knew that same energy flowed through me.

My truthful eyes saw God everywhere.

So, while it was hard to get used to my truthful eyes, especially seeing that which prior I covered with lies, it was also the biggest blessing in my world.

I love that I can see now as God sees.

I love that there are angels of lies and angels of truth.

I love that I have been able to be both in this lifetime.

What I know is that many in my family are loving their roles as Angels of Lies, and they are being rewarded by staying close to their mother, their siblings, a family of lying Angels, all resuming life after a bit of truth blew in, they quickly got back to life as it was before.

And it is very different when you begin to see truth; you are set aside from the liars. Our words and actions don’t match; our wings clash.

I flew alone for a while and slowly I am finding Angels of Truth to hang with.  We are a rare bunch, seen as mental by some, cold and bitter by others…(hey, isn’t it said that truth is often times a bitter pill to swallow.)  We are often depicted as home wreckers, spoil sports, insane, crazy, mad…

What I know to be true for me is that life as an Angel of Truth is magnificent, easy, peaceful, wise, perfect, and it walks hand and hand with God.

I do recognize that when I speak as the Angel of Truth, I will get feedback that isn’t kind or supportive or loving from the Angels of Lies.  They are first to spread lies about me, that is their role.  They are only doing what Angels of Lies do…they speak in lies. 

Don Miguel says there is only one conflict in the human experience; the conflict between truth and lies.