Tag: passing

• Don’t Put Time First.

  We cannot waste time. We can only waste ourselves. ~George M. Adams

  I love this phrase. How we think we are only wasting time, when what we are doing is wasting ourselves.

  As you look upon the day, we are asked to make choices by what life offers up to us, we can vote yes or no and that will decide how we used up time.

  I now know it is not a waste to sit by the river, to just be with singing birds, to experience the vast array of nature, but for me, it is a waste to be barraged by negative energies.

  I don’t mind messes and a good crisis, but I do mind people unwilling to change or look at things in a new light, and who are just giving commentary from a mud puddle.

  It isn’t a waste of myself to lend a hand while someone is changing direction, but it is to just watch him or her sit.

  I focus less and less on time and more and more on what I am doing, where I am and how I feel.

  I used to race time on my mail route, for we get paid salary, and it seemed like I was beating the system to go fast, yet I missed the ride, while focusing on time.

  Now I experience the route, the people, the animals, the changing landscape, the weather, I am on the route. I am there in each moment and time passes unnoticed and at the same pace.

  It is amazing how your life will change when you don’t put time first.

  April 30, 2011

  choices, life, now, passing, perceptions, self, time, wasting

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• What you do in time.

  “Time is the most indefinable yet paradoxical of things; the past is gone, the future is not come, and the present becomes the past even while we attempt to define it, and, like the flash of lightning, at once exists and expires.”   

      ~Charles Caleb Colton

   

   

  My brother wrote about time, its fleeting quality and the fact that the mind gets caught up in it or rather the mind and time go hand and hand.

   

  What is time?  Can you see it and does your body know what time it is on the clock, or does your body simply feel its way through the day?

   

  We are taught to eat by the hour hands on a clock and go to sleep by time, and not body’s physical feelings.  We expect certain things from children in time with little allowance for individual growth.

   

  Time seems to take priority over individual self.

   

  Time slips away we say or is life slipping away?  Is it that we allow our selves to watch time instead of seeing what we are doing?

   

  The more I am aware of what I am doing, how I am spending my time and with whom, the less time seems to matter.

   

  Maybe it isn’t about time at all but instead about being aware of your feelings at all times.

   

  Feeling your feelings in time.

   

  We somehow feel that by spending time, we are sharing ourselves and many times we are just sharing time.

  Doesn’t that remind you of school, taking up space and time?

   

  Life is so much more than taking up space and time in another’s life.

   

  Yet we some how feel it is okay to waste time, but what you are really doing is wasting your life.

   

  Your life has value minute by minute. 

   

  We add its value, with feeling and action; we add the content to time.

   

  You are what you do in time.

   

  June 16, 2010

  fleeting, life span, now, passing, past, present, sharing, time, truth, value, wasting

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• A habit of taking care of me!

  If you have a bad habit, you automatically pass it on to your children, and it becomes their habit.  Your lifestyle becomes theirs, your relationships will echo in them. 

   

  Now that I have begun to unlearn my bad ways, to correct many places where I was upside down and backwards, what happens to my children?  Do they get left where I started them off wrong? 

   

  It is like I bought them a ticket for a train bound for Good and Normal only to find it is a train of dysfunction. 

   

  When and if I get off do they continue on?

   

  I feel like I set them on a course and now that it has become their normal; I am abandoning them by jumping off.

   

  It feels like I am up against the habits within me but now they are within another.  How to convince them I was wrong, that I put them heading in the wrong direction?

   

  It is like a trainload of sleeping people heading in the direction of a cliff and I can’t wake them up. 

   

  Saving myself and jumping off seems so selfish.

   

  How will they change course, how will they become aware of where they are headed?  Is it up to me to tell them where they are going, where I was wrong, that I dealt in life poorly and now they are living the results of that?

   

  As I sit near the tracks of their lives, I do not know what I can do for them.

   

  Is it possible that they too will switch trains when I do?  Is it possible that they will eventually echo my new changes?  As they witness the changes within me, will they then dapple in a new habit.

   

  A habit of taking care of me!

   

  May 17, 2010

  bad habits, generations of dysfunction, passing, unlearning habits

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