My writing assignment was to write a letter from my eight-year-old self to my adult self, and I sat there blank. I could not figure out what the little girl needed to tell me.
So, I went and did my morning yoga session. And it came to me that if I look at her sitting within a family of dysfunction and her seeing her older self having escaped, that perhaps then there would be lots to say.
My little self would look upon this adult woman and admire the strength it took for her to walk the walk needed to walk the walk to get her out of the situation of her childhood and to now be working on becoming more artful self.
She at 8 could look upon me where I stand today and be so grateful that I was able to circle back and regain the ownership and awareness of her soul.
That I was able to traverse the wild churning waters of abuse and arrive seemingly unscathed and actually prospering as an adult woman, she would be amazed at my ability to withstand the truth and then to make new choices based upon it.
She would be so grateful that I am no longer in abusive relationships or that I am still being victimized, that I have learned how to do self care, to speak for my self and have the strength to follow through.
She would breath a sigh of relief to know that we survived and are now heading into an even brighter future, where I am honing my self-awareness with yoga and The Artist’s Way, that we are on the pathway of self-loving.
At times I too find it hard to see the distance I traveled and the depth and breath of change that my life has withstood…I stand with my little girl in awe of where we have been and sit in gratitude we not only survived but also are thriving.
What brings me the most peace is that I can look straight into my little girl’s eyes and feel proud and wise and strong, and not have to look away in shame and guilt.
I feel so strongly confident that we are on the right path, and that when I am 80; I will look upon this 52-year-old self the same way.
And in fact there is a writing assignment to write a letter from your 80-year-old self to your 50-year-old self.
I found that much easier, for I was telling me what the Artist’s Way is teaching me, to be more artful, more daring, more wild in learning new things and experimenting, to go out and grasp all the delights the world has to offer, to change your routine, to add some spice and thrill, to toss in colorful experiences…
I want to be at 80, what I am today, but more of it.
I want to look backwards at the next 30 years and be breathless at what I did!
Each Artist’s date is adding to the list of things that will blow my mind as I look back when I am 80.
I M Perfect lady 