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• Peace Is.

  What I read about the lower levels, (below 200 in consciousness) caught my attention. 

  "A prime difficulty with thoughts and behaviors associated with the energy fields below 200 is that they cause counterreactions. A familiar law of the observable universe is that force results in equal and opposite counterforce; all attacks, therefore, whether mental or physical result in countreattacks. Malice literally makes you sick; we're always the victims of our own vindictiveness.  Even secret hostile thoughts result in a physiological attack on one's own body." David Hawkins, Power vs Force

   

  As you are caught up in blaming and pointing fingers and attacking others, you are actually loading the gun to come back at you.  

  If it hadn't been for Byron Katie and her brilliant turn around, where I could see that who I was really hollering at was me, I would have kept loading the guns and attacking others.  Instead I got very busy unloading my anger guns.

  I have been very busy learning about the human mind, the psyche, and now the levels of awareness and energy that all contribute to the way a human being is…to say nothing of the treatment and beliefs they were taught as a child.  Incredible that we even have any coherent beings walking this planet.

  And it is my belief, the more we learn about what doesn't work, the more we can learn about what does.  And our exquisite bodies are the key to unlocking all the mysteries.  As Deepak Chopra has stated, "the mind is manifested in the body," and an angry mind creates disease. 

  I have found my ease and peace by learning about how truth or untruth affects my body and how I live my life.  

  I have learned by reading and doing, that what I put out indeed comes right back.  There is no one out there to blame for my life but me.  

  David writes about peace.

  "Peace can't be created this way; peace is the natural state of affairs when what's preventing it is removed.  Relatively few people are genuinely committed to peace as a realistic goal, for in their private lives, most people prefer being "right" at whatever cost to their relationships or themselves.  A self justified positionality is the real enemy of peace.  When solutions are sought on the level of coercion, no peaceful resolutions are possible."

  What I love is that peace is the natural state of affairs, when you remove what is preventing peace…peace is.

  I had no idea that I had such huge mountains of stuff preventing me peace!  When you can get to the place of loving what is, peace is.

   

  January 5, 2012

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• The Raw and Perfect Truth.

  As I thought about the way we paint people, how we are taught at a very young age to temper our truths, what we see and how we feel, how we not only learn to paint ourselves in false colors, but others as well. 

  We tell little children it is ‘not nice’ to call a fat person fat.

  It is not nice to say that someone who is mean is mean.

  That it is not nice to say grandma made you feel bad.

  We are teaching them, It is not nice to speak your truth…

  And, speaking your truth will make others feel bad.

  Is that right?  How can that be?  How in the world are the child’s words and feelings put aside to protect the mean or fat person?

  And then we wonder why they don’t come and tell us when a mean Uncle so and so did bad things to them.  They have been taught that their feelings don’t matter and that the truth is not kind.

  I am quite certain the fat person knows she/he is fat.

  And perhaps it may be better for us to engage in a conversation about it. 

  When I began speaking my truth, it felt like I was doing something bad.

  Like I had broken the ‘golden’ rule of kindness, that I had turned a corner into the forbidden territory, and all hell would break lose.

  And it did, the pretty painted picture shattered and crumbled.

  I lost friends and family when I spoke out loud and became like a very very stubborn child. I refused to give up what I had seen, how I felt and how the other person’s actions affected me.

  For once in my life, I looked at me in truth and how the world around me felt to me, looked to me…and my coloring people crayons disappeared.

  And the paints I used to tone down what I saw and how I felt…completely dried up. 

  I then discovered an incredible freedom and how easy it was to not have to come up with an excuse for others or worry how my truth would make them feel.

  Byron Katie’s book, “Loving What is” showed me how it was okay and actually a very sacred place to be.

  I was walking with God in reality. 

  I saw what God saw.

  He didn’t paint a sunset over to make it into a bird, nor a tree into a river.  He kept them all in their natural states.  I could then see the perfection in everything. 

  A mean person is mean.

  An unhappy person is unhappy.

  A homeless man has no home.

  A biting dog bites.

  A pedophile abuses children.

  A drunken person drinks.

  A neglectful mother neglects her children. 

  I didn’t try to make any of the above different, it was impossible and not my job.  I retired as the painter to make their lives appear kinder and feel better to me.

  Instead I felt them as they were…I opened myself up to feel all the things I had previously painted, I stripped them down so only their truths shone forth.

  I felt what it feels like to have a pedophile father, a neglectful mother.  I felt it all wash over me removing my own paints of being normal and okay.

  Stripped bare I stood with a family minus the pretty paint.

  Its unvarnished rawness of glaring truths…

  It wasn’t pretty but it was my truth…and I didn’t have the strength or the desire to pick up a brush and cover it up.

  I let it lay there in all its ugly perfect glory… the raw and perfect truth. 

   

   

  August 31, 2011

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• Find Their Own Way…

  The battle of the wills end when you allow the other to have free will, it is pretty hard to fight with freedom.

  The tighter you hold and the more you force, the less the other person can feel and find their own sense of what it is they want to do.

  When I was in the beginning stages of my mental breakdown, my husband and I found a place to stand that left us both in total freedom, a place called “I love you today.”

  In this spot, it allowed each of us to change our minds and to gauge our own feelings about whether we wanted to stay together. This free space to be yourself, to feel that which you feel and to express it daily allowed us the time to re-configure a new normal in our relationship.

  We fell into this spot after weeks and months of feeling the instability each of us had during the most stressful event in our marriage, Me not knowing who I was.

  Pretty hard to promise tomorrow, when today is unknown.

  It felt so much easier to breathe when we embraced the unknown and lived presently with each day and even each moment.

  “I love you today” is an honest and alive relationship and we both promised the other that if and when we didn’t want to be here we would tell the other.

  It isn’t a piece of paper, the ‘happiness’ of our children, or a million other reasons that folks stay together, but instead we individually get to choose if we fit together, if we are happy here, if we enjoy this place, if we are at peace here, if it is a spot for us to grow and change….

  It is like a free-range relationship, where each has the freedom to be who we are, and when who we are no longer works together, we will be brave enough and honest enough to let the other know.

  I just don’t feel then, that we can blame the other; we will always hold the power within us.

  I love you today, and if it changes I will let you know.

  I am thinking this same idea can be used upon our children. Instead of raising children who must remain in our pen (religion, mind set, pathway, etc), where we tell them how to be and grow, that we instead open the gate and let them roam free.

  Let their will be done.

  Let them decide which way to go and how to be.

  It releases both of us to be who it is we were meant to be.

  This reminds me of the paragraph from one of Bryon Katie’s books,

  “I don’t know what is best for me, or you, or the world. I don’t try to impose my will on you or anyone else. I don’t want to change you or improve you of convert you or help you or heal you. I just welcome things as they come and go. That’s true love. The best way of leading people is to let them find their own way.”

  February 11, 2011

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