Tag: my business

• Giving up Control

  I thought this blog was over when I had the realization that my daughter had my unconditional love, that when I hopped on the back of “Mr. Heart is as big as a House, that I completed my journey, that all I had to do was ride along, ducking when the shit hit the fan….

  Nope, that isn’t it at all.

  The second part of my ride has just begun.

  I now know where I have been, what techniques I use for love and how and when to apply them, when I take out my tackle box and get busy.

  It is each and every time a mess arrives and IF the mess is in someone’s life I love, well, get the hell out of the way, I am going in.

  I slip off, okay I jump off the motor bike and leave my world behind, I roll up my sleeves pull out my tongue, engage my mental mind and I am in your business up to my neck, and Mr. Big as a House heart rides alone.

  And here’s the deal when I leave Mr. Big Heart, I leave my own heart, my own love and passion and become stuck in the quick sand of your life.

  That is what I do, Miss Mental Lady loves to play in your lives, your world, and moves around and the more she moves the more stuck she gets, it is indeed like quick sand.

  What I need to do most is close my eyes, shut my mouth, and enjoy the ride.

  If I am riding along and holding on and letting the Universe lead, I cannot be responsible, I cannot just jump into lives unasked, unsolicited…oh my God what a meddlesome woman, an unwelcome intrusion.

  How much can you decide if someone is in there deciding it for you? Who needs a mind if my mental mind is coming to your rescue?

  I know that Michael Brown of the Presence process says, “If you pick someone up, when you put them down, you put them back where you found them.”

  While we think we are saving, we are delaying or stealing their lessons.

  My job, my only job as I can see it now is to hold on to my business, my world, my joy, my love, my life and to gracefully sit silently looking upon my daughters and any other.

  I had said to my mother, “Silence is the kindest thing I can offer…” Silence and a loving heart is the best of me I can offer, if my mind gets involved we are off to the races, the struggle of you running your life or me running your life.

  Pick one.

  If I don’t pick running my life, I have learned nothing.

  I am back.

  I am in my business.

  Whew, another close call…

  I am holding on Universe…here we go!

  I keep forgetting I am not driving! UGH…
  Backseat drivers only annoy whose driving.
  It is best to sit back quietly and enjoy the ride.

  The second part of this blog is me learning to walk the walk
  of giving up control…

  January 28, 2011

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• ‘Their inner knowing….’

  I decided I was doing my 75^th yoga class at 7am this morning, my nosebleed said, “It will be later.”

   

  Last night I went to bed to go to sleep, my mind went to bed to wrestle with other people’s lives, and we were both losers.

   

  The mind likes to be the party planner, the event coordinator, and the one in charge, when it is only the guest.

   

  Yoga means ‘to yoke’ and what I feel it is doing is trying to yoke the mind. 

   

  “To bring your mind back to the body for 20 seconds, which is the hardest thing to do…” Bikram

   

  Bringing the mind back to the body is to bring the mind to reality, to this present moment and your body, not somebody else’s body, to yoke it to your life.

   

  It seems impossible that the mind isn’t with you and for you at all times, but watch. 

   

  Watch and see how often you miss what is in front of you while you are off in another’s land.

   

  And once your mind looks about in their land, you want to decorate, plant, arrange, toss out, add, do many things YOU feel they are lacking.

   

  I am so damn grateful that I won’t allow those foolish ideas to pass my lips, now. 

   

  The old me would have tossed out orders like a drill sergeant to get that persons life in order.

   

  What is equally insane is this mind comes into my world and does the same to me, trying to move me out of my present moment. 

   

  Oh and you know when someone else has lost their yoke (mind), for they will come into your world with great orders of things YOU need to do.

   

  Inside of us is this inner knowing, which doesn’t live in the mind, that will lead us where it is we need to go.

   

  Trust that inner knowing, trust that it will lead the way, for it is always about you, never about another.  It moves you!  It is not our job to move another!

   

  Otherwise it would be called ‘their inner knowing’….

   

   
  

   

   

   

   

   

   

   

   

  March 16, 2010

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