I M Perfect lady

“I did it,” I said as I completed the last pose, I did it and I felt this accomplishment deep within, I did it.

The overwhelming emotional feeling of victory settled all around me as I was bathed in the feelings of success.  A success between my relationship with my body and I; I had kept my word!

I am learning how to be present,  be aware and to be honest with my body, what I put in my body and how best to treat it.

For so long my relationship has been distant, aloof, uncaring and neglectful and my body displayed that marvelously.

The body is such an incredible living mirror; it can only reflect how you treat it, nothing more or nothing less.  It simply responds.

I am with a body that lived for years and years without a connection with me, for I didn’t want to feel its pain.

Geneen Roth explains in her book Woman, Food and God, “…I tell my students that the greatest blessing of their lives is their relationship with food.  They look at me rather quizzically, but the sentiment sounds so lovely that they are willing to hear me out.  Then I say that we are not going to fix their relationship with food; we are actually going to walk through the door of their eating problem and see what’s behind it.  Instead of using food to avoid discomfort, they are going to learn how to tolerate what they believe is intolerable.”  Geneen

I found out that I loved sweets for their ability to numb my body and make me tired, I am learning that by doing yoga it can wake me up and give me energy.

It makes sense to me that I distanced myself from my body that I tried to shut it down.  It was hurt and abused. As a small child I had to shut it down to survive and I escaped with food that numbed the body so I didn’t have to feel.

As you awaken this body back up, you do have to feel what you couldn’t feel way back when, but you feel more alive than you ever have felt, more powerful and confident knowing you can feel deeply and still breathe!

When you numb out the bad feelings you also take the good ones too.  I didn’t know this. 

I felt the rush of victory and accomplishment I did it! 

I stayed with my body for 120 days I did not run away!